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harry and mitch have been going out for about two months, and so far things have been going good. mitch has been very pleasant around harry, he isn't pushy and he doesn't pressure harry to do anything more than he's comfortable with. harry likes him a lot, and for his first relationship it wasn't so bad. but as of lately, things between them have started to become a little more than than what harry expecting.

this relationship of course started off as very innocent. mitch was really fond of harry at the beginning and that fondness bloomed into a genuine attraction towards the curly haired boy. despite having zayn on their asses at all times and being the over protective bastard he is, mitch endured it and stuck around. which is surprising, any other guy would've probably got tired of zayn's badgering and broke up with harry by now. but for some reason, mitch didn't get chased away by him...yet. (probably because mitch is niall's friend and he doesn't want to jeopardize their friendship).

anyways, as of lately, the innocent little relationship they have slowly started to turn into something more. nothing sexual had been done between them, but harry could definitely tell something was different in the way mitch treated him. not that mitch was treating him bad or anything, just different. normally whenever they're together, there's little to no touching, but now it seems like mitch can't keep his hands off harry. it's just little touches, but there's certainly a dull yearning for something more behind each one of them.

the small kisses they usually share turns heated and hungry, and mitch gained the habit of grabbing harry's butt or kissing on his neck. things harry definitely isn't used to having done to him, it's new to him and he is increasingly becoming more wary of this. harry knows that when louis and niall have their girlfriends here, they're always doing stuff like this with them. they're pretty much experienced and used to it by now, having been in relationships before, but harry feels weird all of a sudden. as much as he wanted to date before, he doesn't know exactly how to deal with this. and he had a feeling that their relationship wasn't so cute and innocent anymore.

did mitch want to do sex with him? is that why he was becoming more and more physical with harry than he was at the start?

harry doesn't know what he would do if that were the case. harry didn't want to have sex with him. just the thought of it gave him extreme anxiety. not that he didn't like mitch, but he just didn't want to go there yet. he enjoyed the way things were before. he liked sharing short sweet kisses with him, cuddling, talking about anime or playing video games with him. but sex was the last thing on his mind and he just didn't want that to happen yet. he felt like everything was moving really fast and he doesn't know what to do. then again, he doesn't know if that's really mitch's true intention and he could just be jumping to conclusions. harry is just so confused, and a little scared because he doesn't know how to handle situations like this.

those thoughts remain in his mind even now as he lie next to said boyfriend on his bed. it's early in the day, around three thirty. everyone was home side from zayn; who had been packed down with duties today by his manager. louis was still on punishment from that party so he wasn't going anywhere anytime soon, and niall was doing what he always does. since liam was here, that basically gave them the freedom to do whatever because he is nowhere near as strict and pestering as zayn is. it was mitch who got the bright idea to have harry's room door locked so that they didn't get walked in on (oh if zayn ever found out he would have an aneurism, after murdering mitch and grounding harry for the rest of his life).

the two of them had just been hanging out most of the day, talking, watching some movies, and spent a little time in the pool as well, before venturing back to harry's room. it lead up to harry's room door getting locked and them making out. the kissing was sweet at first but it quickly changed. mitch's kisses were fiery and needy, and his hands had started to roam, trailing over harry's body in a sensual manner. it isn't long before the younger boy can feel his butt being grabbed and groped at. he starts to feel uncomfortable but he doesn't say anything. that is, until he can feel the older boy's hand sliding down between his thighs. harry has a brief flashback, his stomach sinking.

harry quickly pulls away from the kiss, weakly pushing at mitch's chest to signal him to stop as he pulls himself to sit up. mitch stops and looks up at him in the eyes, breathing slightly shallow. "w-wait."

"what's wrong?" he asks, looking at harry's flush face as he chews on his bottom lip nervously. the green eyed boy pulls his knees up, holding them tightly together like his life depended on it.

"y-yeah, i just don't feel good." harry replies. to be fair, it wasn't completely a lie, harry didn't feel good, but it wasn't the real reason just part of the reason. he shouldn't lie to mitch, but he also just didn't have to guts to speak up and tell him what was making him uncomfortable.

"yeah? did you need something? water maybe?" mitch asked. the tone in his voice didn't indicate that he was mad or irritated with harry, just genuinely concerned, so the brunette was relieved. he relaxed a little but he was still anxious and wary. he nods slowly, keeping his green eyed locked with mitch's.

"yeah." harry breaths softly. mitch nods.

"okay, i'll get you some." he says, leaning forward to peck harry's lips before leaving his room to go fetch harry some water. harry sighs in relief, pressing his face into his legs, his arms still hugged tightly around his knees. he swallowed the lump that formed in his throat, feeling horrible. he didn't want to potentially make mitch mad at him by pushing him away, but he couldn't help it. how far would it had gone if he hadn't? he can't do sex! he just can't, he's not ready and frankly, he's still frightened at the thought of it ever since that incident with tr*vis. he still thinks about it from time to time, and it's not that he thinks mitch will do the same, but that doesn't mean he's not still scared.

what is he going to do? he's so lost and confused. does he just tell mitch that he doesn't want to do it? would mitch get angry at him? would...would mitch force him to do it anyway? no, no! he can't think like that, mitch is a good guy and he's always nice to harry...

just like tr*vis was too in the beginning ..

harry squeezes his arms tighter around himself, his eyes burning slightly.

what is he going to do?

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