Never Enough

White Horse

White Horse — storystalkpage

"We can just hold hands.", you smiled. You held me under this starry night. Feeling the sea breeze, hearing our friends laugh from afar. You and me sitting on these vast sand. Who would have thought this entire scene that I always picture back then is happening. Well, you were just my maybe 7 years back.

— "Oops! Wait wait wait how to spell out your name again?" You smiled and laugh as if you are okay.

"Does it spell like this?" You gestured some letters in the air. I watched closely and you spelled it as LOVE. Damn it made my heart skip a bit. I am Stacy. I pushed your head to snap it out already.

"Kidding! Of course I know the spelling geez!" You laughed and continued writing the lines for the script that I am making. I looked at you. Clearly, you are unwell, you've been out from school for 3 days but you managed to be here today. Glad you are here.

"Here, I am done. You good in making these Stacy." You then smiled at me. You never knew how many times you made me happy. Well, I am not telling anybody either, I never told anybody.

— "Why are sitting next to me?!" I asked you annoyingly. And there you are, just laughing next to me. You were a distraction. My lovely distraction. Every single day you are sitting next to me. Group projects for 4 you always join though you have guy friends out there. Every singing practice you are sitting next to me.

— "Miss Flint where is your boyfriend?" Our law teacher asked me loudly. There was a moment of silence. Damn I was speechless. They are all looking at me smiling and waiting for answers. Well, I just stammered. I don't know where you are! You never showed up at school. I just said I don't know.

Then, I saw our law teacher in the cafeteria again. He glared at me.

"Where is your boyfriend?" He's waiting for an answer.

"Uhh, he's not my boyfriend." I casually faked a smile to look convincing.

"Oh! Really? Well, you two are a perfect match though." He walked away. Geez, you didn't know how flustered I was when he said that.

— "Can you stop doing that?!" I whispered at you. You are distracting me again and we are on the middle of a discussion. You answered that I looked like Angeline Jolie. I was annoyed and pinched you and grabbed your arms to scratch. It was funny but you knew that it was too much.

— "Why are you always next to me?!" I yelled at you. Honestly, I am not annoyed at you. I am annoyed at myself as I am seeing bruises and scratches all over your arms because of me but you still choose to sit next to me.

"I don't know. I just like to be with you." You made my heart skip a bit, again. You always do that every single day. I can't help it, I couldn't even unlike you.

— "Why are you always with us? Can't you teo date already?" Our friends are suspicious for nothing.

"Not yet." You said that and looked at me. I know that my face is turning red so I immediately went away . But you managed to grab me back and checked my face and smiled. Shoot.

— "Is that your crush? You know what, you'd uncrush him eventually. It won't take long. It's just for a short period of time." You asked me as my fake crush just walked in front of us not knowing that you are the one that I like.

— "Are you okay?" You looked pale. Now, you always sleep right next to me at school and I was worried. You are sad but I cannot do anything. You said you hated your dad for leaving you and your mom.

If only I could take away all the pain that you were having that day, I would. Until such time that you never showed up to school for days, weeks, months, and years. You left school. You left me hanging.

After 7 years you reached out to me. You asked me if we could go out of town. I was hesitant again but I wanted to go. I waited at that restaurant. You called and said you can see me from your spot already. I was nervous. Really nervous. This time, I was able to say yes to this trip after all Nos that I gave you. I looked around and you smiled while coming towards me. I kept it cool but I was amazed again. You still look fine. Girls out there would still look at you.

We arrived at the beach with our old friends. They were happy to see me as they have been having a hard time letting me join your trips out of town lately. Well, I couldn't deny that I am happy that I came.

"Why are we holding each other's hands when we are obviously not dating?" I asked you. I don't need any flings and flirts already. You just looked at me while still gripping my hand.

"You know that I like you right? Since then. I am sorry I didn't say goodbye. I was in a tight spot. I have to stop and do full time jobs instead. You know that I like you right, Stacy?"

I couldn't talk back right away. I was trying to understand how I feel tonight. With this, you holding my hand. You, telling me that you like me. Never thought this day would come. I just stared at the stars while you are waiting for my response. I looked at you and this time, I finally know how I feel for you.

"Hey lovebirds! Come over here! Your turn to sing!" Our friends are calling us before I could say anything. Well, I kinda liked the timing. We stood up and I grabbed the guitar as they are trying to put logs for the bonfire. We sat and joined the circle.

"Sing Love Story, it's Taylor Swifts, you love that." You requested as if you know the songs that I loved to listen years back. I smiled as you still remembered. Then I started to play the guitar and finally gave you my response.

"Nope. I will sing White Horse this time." I finally know that I really liked you before, but not this time.