jesse- a love story in its own right

part one- the break up

I was sitting down with a white background behind me. People all around me finding new outfits and deciding which pictures to chose. I had to put on a fake smile to mask the pain that my recent breakup with Josh Richards had caused me. After the photoshoot, I was supposed to go over to Josh's place and give him back his things then announce that we had broken up. It's safe to say that I had
been dreading it. I parked my car in the parking lot right near Josh's new apartment since he had just recently moved out of the sway house with Jaden. I knocked on the door and saw Josh, this was the first time I had seen him since our breakup. "Hey," I said and he responded with "hi ness". A nickname that when he called me gave me butterflies. He led me inside and I gave him the box of his belongings which mostly consisted of sweats and sweatshirts. We say on the couch and started filming the youtube video announcing the breakup. Josh's eyes looked like he was going to cry and my voice sounded defeated. After that Josh hugged me and we talked for a while, but it wasn't the same. I left about 20 mins after we filmed the video. I sat in my car and balled my eyes out. After I stopped crying I got a text from my friend Avani.
Avani🤍
hey bubs, want to go out to dinner tonight?
Cynthia😍
YES BITCH
Mads🥰
yes yes yes...
Nessa(me)
sound like fun:)
I told my friends that I was okay even though I wasn't. I didn't want to go to dinner tonight but I also didn'twant wang to be alone.