Kellic Song One-shots

Letting you go

Warnings: sad stuff, alternating POVs, musician Vic and biologist Kellin. Also unintentionally changed the whole meaning of this song and once I realized it was too late. Enjoy anywayss.

Vic – Now

Sometimes I still wake up thinking about him.

I can't help it. I wonder how he's been, what he's up to. Dumb little things like what mood he woke up with. If life is treating him alright on the other side of the world. If it's still everything he ever wished for.

It's already been a while since he left, almost a year in a couple months. We haven't spoken much since the last time I called, which was on his birthday. And even that call was brief because I was late for the studio and he had to drive to pick up some samples for his lab. Life only gets busier and busier.

Sometimes I can't help all the dreams I still have of him. Most of them are memories, some of them are pure imagination. Either way it's always nice to see him, even if it's all in my head. 

I don't really know how the subconscious mind works, but I wish mine got the memo that he's gone and he's not coming back. Just catch up with reality, man. It's not that hard. Look at me, I'm already moving on.

I mean it, really. I'm fine.

To tell the truth, I thought once he left I wouldn't be able to live one day without breaking to pieces, yet I was wrong. Most of the time I miss him to death, and I certainly still hold love for him. And I won't deny crying all the time during the first few days after his departure because it was rough. It was the worst pain I'd ever felt in my life. But then things slowly started getting better.

I've been so engrossed with my band and our debut record finally coming out in a few months which, honestly, I still can't believe is happening. The distraction in the form of the recording process has really helped a lot. It was therapeutic for sure. That and also the support from my friends. Being in this band is everything I've ever worked for, and it's finally where I want it to be. 

And I know he's not here to see it all happen like I always imagined he'd be. But life's like that I suppose.

I sigh as I roll in my bed. The sun is already out. Today we're shooting the album cover with the guys and I'm so pumped for it. After that we have interviews with a few music magazines and later on we booked some hours at the studio. Everything's going amazing.

So I don't know why I woke up thinking about him.

My phone dings on my bedside table then and I pick it up.

hey sleeping beauty
we're already outside

I see Jaime's text notification on my phone and the corners of my mouth lift a little. I text him back a quick reply that I'll be down soon.

It's later than I thought, so at last I get out of bed and go. Hopefully leaving any lingering thoughts about him tangled in the sheets behind me.

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Vic – Then

"Yeahhh," I scream into the mic as the song nears its end and grin as my bandmates, Jaime, Tony and Alex cheer and woop as they play the last riffs and beats.

I'm so damn proud of what we're building here.

"That was awesome man," Jaime says.

"Yo Vic, that last chorus was sick." Tony adds and I rub my neck.