The dark EMPATH

The first nightmare

I have no idea what I just saw. I could've sworn I was asleep. But was I really? That dream felt more real then this bed I'm laying in. What happened? And who was that I seen?
*pulls out phone to check the time*
It's was too early to be awake. I doubt that I'll be able to go back to sleep after seeing that. There's no way. I need to figure out this dream. I've been told before that dreams mean something and , if that's the case then what does this one mean?
*3 hours later there's a knock on the door*
Yes ? Why is my dad knocking on the door?
Dad: Jaxon we need to talk.
Jaxon: what's up?
Dad: it's about your grandmother I just got off the phone with your mom and she just passed away. I'm really sorry I know you two were close. Your mom said she won't be able to pick you up in time for the funeral but she'll come down here to get you as soon as she can.
Jaxon: what happened? I thought she was doing okay. Why didn't anyone tell me she was sick?! I could've..
Dad: There's absolutely nothing you could have done to stop this I'll give you some time to yourself .
This is entirely messed up don't tell me that I seen my own grandmothers death!? The more I think about it tho the more sense it makes the person in my dream did kinda look like her. But that's impossible...right? Thinking about this isn't gonna make anything better in fact it may just make me feel ten times worse. Maybe I just need to forget about it? I mean it was just a stupid dream. Unless it wasn't ? FUCK!! Why am I so confused nothing like this has ever happened before so why is it starting now? And why do I feel so much guilt about this situation? Is it because I won't be there to celebrate her life? No...ugh maybe I can't sit here and think about this all day I need to stop thinking about this dam dream!
*plugs headphones into phone *
Maybe now I can relax. Music is after all my safe space. I play any song I want and I just pretend that I'm the person singing giving my own little concert. Despite the blissful sound blasting into my ears I still feel extremely sad. It's like I have enough sadness for more than one person. Well I guess that's to be expected. I am after all trying to hide my emotions. I hate crying in front of people because they always act like they care. I just don't feel like hearing that same stupid line " I'm here if you need anything and I understand what your going through ". It's all bullshit! No one could possibly understand what Im going through without experiencing the same thing I am. I mean for fucks sake I just found out my grandmother died and it's the first week of my summer break. Not only that but my mom talked me into spending the summer with my dad. If I just said no I would've been there with my grandmother in the hospital I would be there to say goodbye, I'd be there to celebrate her life and tell everyone in the family all the stories and memories we made together. But instead I'm stuck out here until my mom can come get me. There's soo many emotions it's like my heart is playing Russian roulette.
ILL WRITE MORE DEPENDING ON HOW THE BOOK DOES SO FAR IM OPEN TO ANY RECOMMENDATIONS