Fill the silence | Itafushi

Our Past

TW: mention of self-harm and abuse

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One year and eight months before the day

Megumi's POV

"I think I can explain now..." he says with a tired voice.

I put the book I was reading on the little night stand and turn my face to look at the boy with pink hair sitting on the bed next to me.

Since the figth we had when we got home, none of us had the courage to break the silence, not even at dinner when he usually tells some stupid jokes that I pretend not to love just so I get to seem him pout...

"Take your time" I say in a calm tone bringing my hand to his face and lightly caressing his cheek with my thumb.

"After the day we confessed to each other... I had told myself that I was going to end whatever there was between me and Mahito..."

I nod indicating for him to continue

"a few days later when I came back home alone because you were doing extra work, he found me..." he turned his face to look at his hands while playing with his fingers in a nervous way

"I told him that I really liked you and that I'm not my brother... But he still didn't give up and he said it would be a shame if I left him because he would have to hurt Junpei..."
he stops to breathe before continuing

"I said he wouldn't have the courage to hurt him but he just laughed and asked if I wanted to try and see what would happen..." I raise a confused eyebrow and grab his hands to try to calm him down a little

"So i have been meeting him anyway... he never tried anything like the other time" his voice breaks a little when talking about what happened "he said you were going to notice and he didn't wanted to have to hurt you too"

A tear runs down his face and I use my free hand to prevent it from falling.

"I don't want you to get hurt..." he lets out a little sob "that's why I said not to get involved... I'm afraid he'll threaten you again and not just Junpei"

When he ends the explanation I put my head on his shoulder in a loving way

"He's not going to hurt me Ita" I whisper "what hurts me is knowing that you went through this alone...I'm here."

I leave a light kiss on his neck raising my head to look in his eyes.

He gives a sad smile before speaking again

"Also... I can't just ignore what you said..." oh yeah I hoped he would...

"Yeah... Sorry... I get it if you feel uncomfortable" I say taking my hand away but I'm surprised when he grabs it tightly, getting closer to me

"I don't." I look in his eyes feeling a relieve rush through my body "but I want you to tell me about it... Now or when you're ready..." I look at our hands letting out a sigh

"I had a tough childhood..." I can't believe I'm about to tell him this... The only person how knows about my past is Gojo because he basically helped me getting over it...

"My mom died giving birth to me, and my dad was... Well he was a son of a bitch"

I'm being honest. I don't remember much about him but what I do remember is the way he left me and my sister completely alone when we were little.

"I also had a sister...she was the only person I cared about...after our dad left, we went to the orphanage where we stayed until I was about 6 years old..." I take a deep breath "it wasn't a very pleasant place... I don't want to go into details but I still have marks thanks to it..."