Find me.

Where it all began..

Saturday 25th February 2015   15:43

It's a Saturday morning. A normal Saturday morning. I was 11 at that time, turning 12 the very next day, i was excited but nervous at the same time. I don't like days which are about me, i'm not one of those pick me girls who attention seek everywhere they go, i like to receive attention from one or two people only. I heard my mum call my name, more than once actually.. I must've not heard her call for the first time as i was busy checking my socials and replying to all of my messages. I came across one which made me stop and think, it was a message from my best friend. I felt light-headed. This couldn't be happening, I must've read something wrong.. So i read it again, but this time slower then before.

Olly: Hey, we're moving away. I tried to convince my parents to let me stay with you but they ignored me. Remember when i told you something felt wrong? This is it. They probably spent months planning all of this out, i honestly don't know if this is a plan to separate us or if it's just because of financial issues
Olly: Stay strong, we'll be able to have our last goodbye later. Be sure to be out by 9pm i promise i'll do everything to stay in touch with you, i'll be thinking about you everyday lei :)

"LEI GET DOWNSTAIRS NOW, I WILL NOT REPEAT MYSELF AGAIN!"
"COMING! Yeah, I'm coming."
I blinked back my tears and ran downstairs with my phone in my right hand, "What's up?"
"I called you more than 4 times, anyways, honey I know this might hurt you but-"
I knew what she was gonna say. "It's about Olly isn't it?"
"Did he tell you?"
"Yeah I got his text some minutes ago,"
"I'm sorry-"
"Don't be, I'm fine." I'm not fine. I can't imagine what my life will be like without him; he's been my best friend for 9 years. He knows all of my secrets, I know all of his, our parents were great friends, we always did everything together.. I looked at my phone, it's 16:05, 4 hours and 55 minutes left.

Leilani: Do you want to meet up before 9? If this is your last day, i'd like to spend it with you, I may never see you again Olly.. :(
Olly: I don't know Lei, I'll ask my parents, they are quite busy though Im afraid they might say no, I wish i could spend this day with you too, give me one sec
Leilani: It's okay if not, I understand why :)
Olly: i have an hour i'll come over to yours then we can do whatever you want!
Leilani: Why don't you choose? It's your last day
Olly: It's your birthday tomorrow and i won't be here to spend the day with you, so it's all up to you Lei!
Leilani: ahh okay, see you at mine!

I want to cry, but Olly wouldn't want me crying. It's 16:27, what if his parents forget about me and won't even let us see each other before they actually leave? They always seemed so nice and treated me like their own daughter.. No, they wouldn't do that, would they? I can see Olly, he's about to cross the road. "MUM IM GOING OUT WITH OLLY ILL BE BACK SOON," i think. No response. I put my shoes on and ran out of the house, I'm trying to stay happy. He wrapped his arms around me and i immediately felt safe. I couldn't pretend i was fine, this would stay in my mind forever, i wouldn't be able to stop thinking about him. I start crying.
"Princess? Why are you sad?"
Princess? Did he call me a princess? HIS princess?
"Why do you have to leave? You can't leave me! Not yet please.." I hear him let out a quiet sigh, he lifts my head up and kisses me. Time stops.. I'm his, he's mine.

14 minutes later, i'm not crying anymore. I'm still sad but i'm smiling, for him. We walk down the road, i'm leading him to my favourite place. It's a hill where no one goes, the view is amazing and the sunsets are unforgettable! That's how i want to spend my last minutes with him. A moment we'll both remember, forever. "Olly,"
"Yes?"
"Something still doesn't feel right, why would your parents tell you just now? Like don't you think it's a bit weird how you only find out now and this could be the last time we see each other.."
"That's what I thought at first, but then i thought that they just didn't want us to worry, It is sudden but It would be easier for both of us. Like if they told me last week, I would tell you straight away, then you would probably get sad and when this day came, you would've felt even sadder than you probably do now."
"Oh." I don't know what else to say, I want to cry again but i can't, he would understand if i did.
"Lei you okay? I promise I'll find you one day and i'll talk to you everyday,"
I can't do it. The tears escape my eyes and we sit there, his arms are wrapped around my shoulders and my head is resting against his chest. I'm only 11, why is this happening? His phone starts buzzing. It's his parents. I check the time, It's 17:12. He's halfway down the hill, i'm still at the top, he stops and looks back at me "I love you Lei,"
I love you too! Olly I love you too.. I stood there with my mouth open i tried to say something but i couldn't. He turned around and carried on walking.

I was right. That was the last time I saw him that day. His parents didn't stop by at hours to let us say goodbye to each other, I'm no one, I guess I'm not worth their time.

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