"Thought I found a way, Thought I found a way out, but you never go away" given to us by Billie Eilish. For me it just reminds me of my current and long battle with Suicidal Depression. You always think you find a way out but it always finds you. On April 19th 2016 I was diagnosed with Suicidal Depression coming from an abusive childhood I see 5 years later nothing has changed I make friends I have relationships I fall in love but nothing ever goes right I make mistakes and still days later I feel the guilt of the entire world on my back. All of a sudden I feel empty and I don't understand what the point is anymore. "But I'm a creep,I'm a weirdo,What the hell am I doin' here?,I don't belong here" from Radiohead. It is true I do not belong here. I do not see why others want me here. I am so lost and I can not find my way home........ What is the point
I saw them again but Its not the same they are so different now I just don't understand what I did to make everything go so so so wrong I will never know..............
