Just Breathe| Paul Lahote (ON HOLD)

10.

WARNING: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS ABUSE AND SEXUAL ASSAULT PLEASE DON'T READ IF YOU ARE TRIGGERED

Willow POV

FLASHBACK- 9 year-old willow

         
I always knew that my mommy and step-dad were different than of their parents and do other things that normal parents shouldn't do. My mommy got married a couple months ago and ever since then she's been acting very weird. I would tell her my stomach hurt and she'd slap me for it. I don't know what I did wrong. I'd even try and tell mark. That's her husband. But all he did was slap me harder than she had.

They would both always have weird red stuff in their eyes and there would also be a bunch of sugar on the table. It would always be in little line which was weird but mommy said to never touch it so I didn't.

Right now I'm was coming home from school. I had to walk because mommy was always at the house and I knew Mark would never drive me because he doesn't like me. I don't really know why he doesn't. I always try and be nice but drawing him things but he always just Tears them up in front of me. Anyways, I placed the key in the key hole and turned the knob. I waited to hear my mother yell but I didn't. I walked inside to see Mark and my mother sitting in the couch.

"Come over here rose" my mother said sternly. She only ever called me by my middle name if it was something important. The last time she used that name she told me about mark and that didn't go so well.

"So, you know we've been having money problems right" she tells me. I look at her and shake my head. I knew what she meant but I'm only 9 how am I meant to know about that stuff.

"My friend is coming over and he wants to meet you. Rose you have to do what he says or you'll be punished far worse than ever" mark threatened. I flinched at his tone and nodded. Whenever mark tell me he's having his friends over it's never good. They always follow me around or touch me. Mommy even see it and says nothing. It makes me feel gross whenever they touch my leg or my arm but they are so much bigger than me so I can't do anything about it.

"He's going to be here soon so go out you go upstairs and change your clothes" mommy told me. I nodded and walked off to my room. I put my bag down on my bed. My room isn't that big but I'm able to fit everything In it. I mean I don't really blame mommy thought. Like they said, they have money problems. I changed into shorts and a t-shirt. I heard a knock at the front door which means that marks friend was here. I opened the door and started walking back to the living room.

"It's the only way Maggie, if we want anymore money we have too. I know you don't give a fuck about that little shit anyways" I heard mark say. Who was he talking about? I walked out to see mommy and mark sitting in the couch with a tall man. He was pretty skinny, had red hair and a beard.

"Rose get over here" mommy said. I walked over to her and stood in front of her. She grabbed my arms pretty hard and pulled me closer to her.

"Your going to go in your room with him and let him do whatever he wants to you" She told me. Does that mean he'll be nicer than all the other guys and play dolls with me? I nodded and walked over to the man and out my hand out. He smirked and stood up and walked with me.

"So, will you play dolls with me" I asked as we got into my room. He nodded. I walked over the my doll drawer and bent down to reach it. All of a sudden I felt hands on my sides. I stood up and looked back to see the man a lot closer than before.

"What are you doing" I asked. All of a sudden he grabbed my and threw my onto my bed. I yelled because I hit my had onto the wall. He walked up to me and started to take my clothes off. I yelled and tried to get his hands off of me but I couldn't. He bent over and started kissing my neck. I kept crying and yelling for him to let me go but he never did.