" By comparing , you can never make them strong . Rather you will make them the weakest person in this whole universe "
" Be like your sister.She is talented , Beautiful , sweet , loving and caring person ! "
" Her sister is better than her . She is nothing in front of her "
"sometimes it amazes how they are sisters . Like they are totally different"
What do you expect from the person who spend her life by listening all this ? How can you expect someone to become strong when there is no support for them ?
Thats life .
But People say Life is all about ups and downs .
But what about the life which is all about Downs?
No one can answer that.
But y'know after every night, There will be a morning.
And I got that morning happiness light in the form of my boyfriend, Jungkook
I don't know. Maybe God decided to show some mercy on me and I am really thankful for that.
Everytime, Every second I thank to God for giving me such a great boyfriend, Who can understand me, Listens to me and the most important 'Love me for who I am'
But After every morning Night always comes Right?
" Jungkook, Can you please eat your dinner atleast. Don't give me time. Its ok. But don'tskip meals please. I want you to stay healthy "
Yes the same problem every caring girlfriend feel when their boyfriend prioritize their work on their health and .......... girlfriend.
" I TOLD YOU I DON'T WANNA EAT! CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND! I AM NOT A BABY! I CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE PLEASE! IS IT TOO MUCH TO ASK?"
What about me? I just want to be happier, Is it too much greed?
"Jungkoo- "
"SHUT UP! WILL YOU! OH HOW MUCH I WISH THAT I NEVER ASKED YOU OUT! "
He is saying this because he is angry. Right?
"Jungkook, Go rest. You are saying this because you are angry right n-"
He started laughing making me confuse and somewhat ...... hurt.
" You think I am joking? Nah !! I really regret being with you. How I wish Your sister was my girlfriend."
No ..... Please Not you ...
" Jungkook, Please St- "
" People are right! Your sister is much better than you! She has everything which all the boys want! Including ME! NOW LEAVE ME ALONE! GET OUT FROM MY SIGHT! "
Oh how much I wished I never heard that. Atleast not from him. But I think my night just came again haunting me.
The morning don'twanna stay by my side.
Tears? Oh no no. I have shed all my tears before. Now I can feel like my whole boy is in pain. Every single part of my body ... Yes its in pain.
After a minute I came out from my shocked state and looked every where but I can only see ........... nothing.
Everything Beside me feels like they are gonna swallow me. So I decided to finally leave him alone. Because Thats what he want right?
'I still feel the rapid breathing of my heart as walk on the streets in the cold winter Don't say its ok because its not okay, please don't leave me alone.It hurts so much'
The night .... The dark streets .... The darkness mostly now feels like my best friend.
"Nice to meet you again, Darkness"
"I am here again. Sorry for leaving you alone for some time. You have cursed me right? Now see I am here again. Aren't you happy"
I smiled at myself. What a life .Can't anybody see me as Y / n and not as my sister's sister? If She has everything that I don't have so Whats my fault in this? Am I not allowed to be happy? Am I not allowed to BE myself? Why I should be her? No answer ..... Because Everyone is the same. While walking through the streets I never realized I reached the bridge .... No. .... My favorite bridge
The water ..... So calm and beautiful. "Isn't life so cruel?"
'I just want to be happier. Is it too much greed"
Life is meaningless for me. What is the use of that life in which noone can give me their little bit of precious time. Noone can love me for who I am? .
But isn't it a good thing? Because of this! I came to know about the reality of those fake people?
"Wait!" If there is no life, then there will be no pain. No worries. No hurt. No ..... comparison "
With that thought, I held my mobile in my hands and went towards my message icon and messaged .... him ... for the last time.
"Maybe I lack in something. Maybe I am not that good. Maybe I don't deserve you. Its ok You deserve someone better ... Like my sister ... So go and be with her. I won't stop you. Infact I will never. You are right, I should be like her in every aspect but thats the main problem
'I am not my sister. I am Y / n'
But noone can understand. But y'know? Its ok. I am ok. You wanted me to leave you alone right? So lets fulfill your wish. This is my last message. Stay happy. Stay healthy. Sorry for caring for you beyond limits.
Next time, If you get a loving girlfriend who is perfect in Every aspect then don't hurt her by your words or actions. Thank you for spending this little time with me. Thank you for being a part of my life. Thank you for making me happy even for a short time. I forgive you. I love you. Also remember one thing which is probably the last thing I want you to do for me.
"Never compare someone who loves you more than themselves to others cz their love is beyond comparison"
Good bye From the person who did a mistake by loving you blindly ,
Y / n"
