Life of Love

ELEVEN =DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY=

Struggles...

Life wont be called life it theirs no struggles nor challenges. Indeed truth. Though at times people tend to stop fighting nor to tired to face those struggles nor burdens in life. Some tend to be traumatized in a situation they've got that tend to have anxiety and depression that leads to suicidal thoughts. It wasn't appealing to hear and to read.  Yet some people dont get its point and don't understand why some of us was struggling in high amount of depression,  that cause lot of death.

Mostly people aged in teenage years above and below got this illness they called. Why? Some get it from their childhood years where, They've been traumatized by their past, that till they got aged it keeps on lingering on their mind and just stuck with a situation, knowing they cant find any solution with the problem. That they can't have someone who can listened nor understand them without any judgement. 

Depression and anxiety wasnt easy to deal with. It cannot be cured easy as you count 1,2,3. Cause as you got this kind of illness it will comes with you. It always goes around with you.

Mental illnesses wasn't easy to deal with. To high and risky to dealt with. That's why  experts has much more understanding and have a lot of patience dealing those people who has this kind of illness,  has deeper understanding and perspective in any cases they handle.  They tend to observe every moves you make, listen to yours talks as how you speak and how you got to listen to their questions and on how you react and responsed to them, also they're very sensitive about the tone you produce as you speak to them.

You see as you became observant and let yourself be indulge in a situation and be highly empathetic  nor highly sensitive to everything around you,  you'll got to understand things in different ways,  without judgement and criticism.

Depression and anxiety is like our own shadows that will always lingers and follow us,  waiting in the darkest hours of our life. It may hunt us lil by lil.  Its scary it is and to hard to dealt with.  Being emotionally un stable wasn't  easy to dealt with. A sudden burst of emotions was to overwhelming to handle. Thats one of a kind of feeling,  that what depression nor anxiety person dealt with. 

They tried to hide it and act that everything was ok.  Yet they knew from themselves it wasn't. That's why some need to intake medication for them to be calm in times of attacks. Depression is more risky like having a high blood pressure, you can't  really predict when nor where it would may attack you.

Depression and anxiety was to painful to dealt with.  Cause as your emotions build ups inside in you that you can't  even control and you didn't  know what would you really feel by then.
‎That's the one of the reasons why depress people tend to cut their own skin for them to lessen the pain inside their chest. Those build ups on their chest,  they cuts as for them to convert the pain inside their chest into some place of their body for them to send some its pains that was building up on the part where they got cuts.
Is it painful the cuts they made? Let me say this. Actually it wasn't painful as it may look and sound. Ironic  it is. You know why?  Because whats building up into their chest was more painful and heavier to handle not the cuts that been made.

You may wonder how and why i could write this, that as if i know it all as you read this. Here it is. Im a one of them. A depress person whose still fighting for a good nor best life,  out of this struggles of depression and anxiety. Yeah i did that too,  those cuts and suicidal thoughts.  Scary was it is. But what can i do? That's  the only thing i had to do that time.

Those time was sinful and unreasonable yet its really hard that anyone couldnt understand why and how it feel. Those times of feeling alone,  nothing to have,  loaded of emotions that cannot been spoke nor react, feeling unloved and un important to every body arounds you,  and many more...  It wasn't really easy to dealt with and wasn't easy to be spoke nor be shared, as a experience that can easily talk to others. We depress people tend to overthink alot of times which leads to anxiety,  and mostly have insomias where we cannot have a good nor enough sleep at night, cause of a lot of thinking nor thoughts in our mind,  that keep on searching and talking inside our minds, that thinking which emotions should we feel.  Tiring it is, yets its a reality of what depress people have.

Some said its our own choice to be stuck and be on depressed side.  Yes it's true that we had a choice,  yet i want them to know nor i want you all know that it wasnt easy to choose to be positive at all times and be more optimism.
Having such kind of depression was an endless loop holes and cycles that we had.  Yes we can choose to be happy and be optimistic at times yet we cannot really run and hide those past depression we had, it still there,  it will always be part of us.  I want you all understand that depress people really need a lot of patience and support from others cause we are suffering from illness nor emotional conditions that we really dont want.  It all just happens to us.

People nor human has their own way of dealing each problems, challenges nor struggles in life. Some tend to be more motivated as they got challenges yet some wasn't. See its different human natures. We're not all perfect,  we commit mistakes and done a mistakes yet we learn from it and become stronger. People has different level on how they dealt with such overwhelming emotions,  that we all need to understand and be open to possibilities and not always judging some people.

We all know this is life that full of struggles and challenges yet all we need is love.  A love to be felt in everyday life,  for us to keep fighting to move forward in life.  An emotional support from others specially in hard times. And most importantly i wanna say is always be kind and understanding to the point of no judgement to others. Because thats how we should show love to others. Cause We may never know what other people been dealing with in their life.  So be kind and understanding and also be patience.
And also be thankful nor be greatful to anyone who supports you and loves you in life.  They were sent from above to guide you and support you.  And don't  forget to say thank you to the devines and pray to our God Creator for tryin to help us and save us for all those misery in life.  Cause without them we cannot see the light on the darkest path we'd take.