Taking The Risk (Risk Series #1) (UNDER MAJOR REVISION)

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

"Nag date kayo ni Koen?" suminghap si Fiona, nanlalaki 'yung mata niya.

"Ang issue mo!" Napairap ako.

Kasalukuyang nasa library para magreview hindi para chikahin ako. I groaned. I averted my eyes from Fiona. There were only a few students inside the library during lunch break kaya I grabbed the opportunity na kaso sumunod naman si Fiona kaya hindi rin ako maka-focus. Mamaya may pop-quiz na naman kami nito or recitation tapos 'di na naman ako nakapag-basa man lang kahit kaunti.

I suddenly felt jealous of the students I am seeing right now, mag-isa lang sila, babad na babad sa pagbabasa ng libro nila.

"So, may something na ba kayo ni Koen?" Fiona smirked.

I rolled my eyes and gave her a deadpan look. "Ang kulit mo rin 'no?"

Inirapan niya rin ako. "Sus, girl, you don't have to deny it."

"You know the consequences of dating your classmate on med school, 'di ba?"

"Yeah, so?"

"No, why the hell would I date my classmate. Ayoko matulad sa iba diyang sobrang awkward ng buong school year nila dito sa med school. Sa tingin mo ba ma-e-enjoy ko 'yon?"

She gaped. "H-ha? Enjoy? So, kalian mo pa nabalakang mag-enjoy dito sa med school?" she cleared her throat.

Napabuntong hininga na lang ako. "Could you please stop na lang muna, I'm trying to study here. Maawa ka naman sa 'kin, ano 'yon? Ikaw pasado, ako bagsak?"

"So kasalanan ko?"

"Wala akong sinabi, so," I placed my index finger on her lips. "Shh."

Pasalamat na lang ako at nanahimik na siya. I finally got time to study na.

Mayamaya pa ay napanguso si Fiona at napahawak sa tiyan niya. "I'm kinda hungry. Bibili lang ako ng food sa cafeteria, sama ka?"

Napaangat ako ng tingin mula sa libro papunta sa kaniya. Napailing ako.

"Okay, bantayan mo 'yang books ko, ha. Kapag may nawala, you know what's going to happen," she narrowed her eyes at me. I just gave her a nod. She stood up from her seat then left the library.

I continued reading whatever that's in front of me. Medyo naduduling ako sa mga words kaya napapikit-pikit ako saglit. I pinched the bridge of my nose as my head started to pound, I even massaged my temples hoping that it would stop. This is my daily symptom whenever I'm here in the library, sitting in one corner while reading. Epekto ng sobrang pagbabasa ng Biochemistry na hanggang ngayon hindi ko magets kung ano nga ba 'tong Protein structure na 'to, I didn't sign up for this shit, okay?

I hate it!

Tapos 'yang Anatomy na 'yan, sumasapaw tapos 'yung Histology pa. Naiinis na ako.

I groaned and opened my eyes. I stilled. I blinked for a couple of times. Hindi ko man lang naramdaman na may umupo na pala sa harapan ko. It was Koen.

"Hey," bati niya.

I pressed my lips. "Hey..."

I don't know what to say, this is what social anxiety feels like. You really don't know what to say, sometimes you want to say something but fear is reigning your whole system, so you ended up saying nothing, you'll just stare at them and nod or something. My heart was in a normal beat a while ago pero nagbago ata nang umupo si Koen sa harapan ko. Hindi ko alam kung anxiety pa ba 'to o ano.

His eyes were now on my book. "Biochem?"

I nodded.

I really don't understand myself, my heart was pounding, damn it! Wala naman ata akong social anxiety! I really don't understand myself sometimes. He's just literally sitting in front of me, why does it feel like it's a big deal to me?