Hidden Love (Tronnor fanfiction)

~22~ Thinking

Connor's pov

Troye was talking to me about Australia and visiting each other I think but to be fair he could be talking about anything right now because I was completely zoned out. My mind was not focusing on the words he was saying, I was just listening to the sound of his soft voice on the back of my mind. My thoughts were completely somewhere else.

"I want to come out to my parents." I suddenly said, interrupting whatever he was saying. For the first time in half an hour I focused on the boy sitting in front of me, examining his expression, his reaction and listening closely to every word he would say. There weren't any. He just sat there dumbfounded, staring at me.

"I want to come out to my parents." I said a second time, in case he didn't hear me the first time.

"I..I know, I..Just couldn't believe it. Why?"

Why? That's not the reaction I was expecting but that doesn't change the fact that I understand why he asks it though. Why so all of the sudden he must think.

"I was thinking about it, us, everything. I can only fully accept everything if I tell my parents and brothers."

"I understand. How do you think they'll react?"

"Honestly, I have no idea. We never talked about this kind of subject, we never needed to I guess."

"When are you going to tell them?"

"This evening. I want it to be over so I can fully focus on our relationship."A sign of shock was plastered on Troye's face but it was soon replaced with a smile.

"Everything will be alright."

The sound of a door slamming shut made us both jump.

"I'M BAAAACK!"

"Tyler," I grumbled. Of course who else would come inside with so much noise.

Tyler soon accompanied us at the table. We only now realized it was almost 1 p.m. Time flies when you're talking.

"So did you guys have fun?" Tyler asked with a smirk.

"We gad some good talks." Troye answered but of course Tyler didn't believe that.

"Mmmh only some good talks huh." I just rolled my eyes, not bothering to reply to him. It's not worth it.

"So how was it with Korey?" Troye asked, it was obvious that he wanted to change the subject and Tyler did notice it too but went along with it.

"We had a lot of fun, no not that kind of fun." I wasn't even thinking in that direction but whatever.

The conversation went on between Troye and Tyler but I was in a completely different world again. Imagining how my parents would react. I always saw them as open minded and accepting but that vision I had of them changed when my sister drowned. After that it seemed like everything I did was wrong or bad. That's why I was so eager to move out. I love my brothers and my parents but it just got too much. Everything there remembered me of my sister and it broke me every day again. When I met the o2l guys I was all too happy to go live with them. It was a change in my life that I needed, even though I was also really happy to live on my own after that. I love those boys but they can get a little too much sometimes and I was almost never there because of travelling. When I came home from travelling I needed some rest and that area was not a good place to get that, in contrary. The craziness of the boys didn't help at all.

"Connor?" A voice asked me concerned. It took me a few moments to identify the voice as Troye's. I wasn't concentrating on what was happening around me. Guessing by the look of their faces it seems that they have been trying to talk to me for a while.