i'm sorry i'm annoying. i'm right about to leave, like you probably want. i thought that's what you wanted. it's so obvious you don't want to talk to me. so why in the hell do i keep trying? if i'm being completely honest, i don't know. maybe it's because you're fun to talk to. maybe it's because i'm depressed and need you, not that you notice. maybe it's because i simply just miss you. i can't give you a straightforward answer. i try and i try to talk to you, but with no success. don't worry. i'll go. i don't want to be the reason why you leave. i don't want to be annoying. i'm always afraid of you calling me that. it would literally break me. i'm right about to go with tears in my eyes, not that you see or care, but you surprise me. you tell me to stay. i'm in shock. completely clueless. why in the world would you want me to stay? i don't understand... but i stay away. a few minutes go by. the feeling never changes. it feels like your drifting away. like i'm the reason why you're so distant. i'm trying to change. i'm trying to leave you be, so i won't drive you away. but it's hard. i want to talk to you. i feel so happy when we talk. i get butterflies when i see a notification from you. but you won't understand.
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What It's Like In My Mind
Short StoryA collection of poems/stories I wrote of what it's like in my mind. It may not be for everyone, it includes mentions of suicide, swearing, and mentions of my trauma.
