||where's my love||

XXV

"I can't help but want you..."

It was a Friday evening when Harry and Draco decided to meet at Harry's.Well it wasn't really Harry's but he's been living with Hermione and Ron ever since the breakup. He couldn't be more grateful for his friends to just take him in but whenever he told them they'd shrug and tell him they'd do anything for him.

"So Draco is coming over?",Hermione asked while putting on her a pearl necklace that Harry gave her once.
"Yes"
"That's fantastic. You're not alone then",said Ron delighted from the kitchen.
"It's not like I can't be alone",Harry rolled his eyes although he knew it wasn't the best idea to be alone at the moment but he'd never admit it. Nothing was harder to except than having a bad time. He hated it. It made him feel weak and that's the last thing he wanted.
Going through a breakup was way tougher and exhausting than it seemed in all these movies.
It's not like Harry still stayed up crying all night but he sometimes had these moments when he'd suddenly get sad thinking of how happy they seemed to be.
Those were lies and he knew it better than anyone else but his brain would just make him think that way. These were the moments were Harry wished nothing more than to turn back time and try to fix things.
However he didn't want Ginny back because he knew her love wouldn't fix anything. It was depressing and Harry was tired of his thoughts. All he wanted was this to pass.

"I know that but still I like the thought of you being with someone more than you being all alone drowing in your own thoughts the wholenight.",his best friend said and came over into the living room to give him a hug him.
"I know..",Harry mumbled,"but now hurry up or you'll be late"
The couple decided to finally go on a date again after a long time. Sometimes Harry felt like he steals their time as a couple,so it was nice to see them getting ready to spend some time on their own.

"It's fine,we'll go",Ron said taking his keys and Hermiones hand.
But before the two were out of the door,the ginger shouted:"Use protection,kid".
"Ronald!",his girlfriend warned him and smacked his arm.
Harry just chuckled to himself, shaking his head.
Draco and him were definitely not about to have sex or anything like that. They were just good friends and Draco was a goodlistener.
Even if they'd be in love, Harry wasn't ready for another relationship.
The ringing doorbell threw him out of his thoughts,so he quickly ran to the door and opened it.
As expected Draco was standing there,smiling and lord save Harry,his smile made his heart stop for a second.
"Hey",Draco greeted him with a hug.
"Hey",Harry answered,trying to swallow the clump that was in his throat.

Everything felt a bit awkward but the mood changed rather quickly when the two of them got comfortable and watched a movie,which was picked by Draco. The boys sat close,neither of them seemed to mind. Harry would even say he enjoyed the closeness,somehow Draco managed to make him feel more safe and more at home. Of course all these feelings were totally platonic. At least that's what Harry thought.
Could he potentially feel more for Draco? Were his friends right about Draco and him acting like they were more than friends? Were they more than friends? There were so many questions in Harry's mind and it made himvfeel a little dizzy.

"What are you thinking about?",Draco questioned,while sitting up and coming closer to him. "Nothing",Harry answered, his throat now completely dry.

"Are you sure? You don't look too good to be honest.".Harry couldn't answer.

"Did something happen? You're getting me worried..",his voice was soft and caring which made Harrys heart flutter. Why did he have to be so caring? Why did he have to be so goddamn beautiful.

"Fuck..",he whispered.

"What?Please tell me what's wrong?",the blonde boy came even closer not realising what effect it had on Harry.