What Doesn't Break You (Ashton Irwin Fanfic)

Chapter 15

A.J.’s POV:

Trying to fall asleep after the best day ever is impossible. I wouldn’t say everything that took place was amazing, school was anything but awesome, but everything afterwards certainly was. Going over to Ashton’s house was amazing. We still haven’t actually started our writing assignment together, but we were getting closer.

Even though I was terrified of having to write a song and perform it in front of actual people, I wasn’t really worried about that right now. And as long as Ashton was with me, I don’t think I needed to worry that much anyway. He could play several instruments, write songs, sing, and seemed to be good at everything regarding music. Actually, he was probably good at most everything. He was very confident.

And then there was that kiss. I guess it really was a little more than a kiss. The term ‘making out’ might work better to explain what happened, but it didn’t really matter what you called it because it was incredible. Actually, it was more than just incredible, but I couldn’t think of a better word to explain it. It was just pure bliss.

I don’t know how kissing someone for the first time is supposed to feel, because I’ve never talked to anyone about it before. But as far as first kisses go, I would give it a 15 on a scale of 1-10. There is simply no way to describe the perfection of feeling his lips on mine. The way I could close my eyes, but still sense everything that was happening; how time simply slowed down enough to turn 5 minutes into 5 hours; and that fact that it was Ashton making me feel this way.

I know I said I only wanted to be his friend, a really good friend to him. But I couldn’t help but internally wish that we could be more than that. And now that I lay in my bed after leaving his house that night, I knew that I had been getting my hopes up on the inside no matter how hard I tried to suppress it.

The truth was Ashton made a part of me come to life every time I saw him. Even when he was an ass to me when I first moved here, he still had caught my attention from the moment I first met him. The nerves I get when I try to talk to most people become butterflies when I talk to him. And I most certainly wanted to keep whatever it was we had going on, moving in the same direction.

I was afraid of what I was feeling, but I craved it none the less.

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I woke up tired the next morning because I didn’t fall asleep until near 4 a.m. But despite being tired, I was also excited. I was going to school, but that meant I was going to see Ashton again. I rolled out of bed and starting getting ready as fast as I could get my groggy body to move.

Looking in the mirror, I groaned as I saw my hair resembled a haystack and my eyes had dark circles underneath them. I quickly took a shower and dried my hair. I put a little concealer on under my eyes along with my usual face power and mascara. I never make a fuss with my makeup, but now I had a reason to not look like a zombie at school.

After fixing my hair and face, I put my school uniform on and made my way to the kitchen. I was met by the site of my uncle sitting at the table with a cup of coffee and staring at something on his laptop when I walked in. He looked up as I started making myself some toast and said “You’re up and about very early this morning.”

I turned around at his words and looked at the clock. It was 6:15. I normally didn’t have breakfast until around 7:00 as I didn’t have to be at school until 8:00. “Um…I was already awake. Didn’t sleep well last night.” I turned and continued making my toast, a little embarrassed that I was so anxious to get to school.