Lets Start At The End

"Childhood memories"

I was born with a special ability.

- You can never EVER tell anybody about this, do you understand me? Mother told me with a shaky voice while Holding me in her arms.
And you can never affect the future again, it will have big consequences!

I nodded.

- Good, she anwered calm. Do you promise you will stop?

- I promise ,mother, I said and hugged her.

Just a 6 years old stupid girl, who gives promises she can't even keep. Already the next day I broke it.
I had a vision at my school, that my friend Tristan would run and trip. Then he would scratsch his leg.
We were 6 years. I couldn't let that happen. So instead I shouted at him to not run.
Just as mother told me, because I have the power to see others future, it will bring consequences too. Humans are not ment to have that ability.

Tristan turned around fast to answer me. Thats when he and our classmate Amelia ran into each other.
They both fell to the ground and hit their heads.
Amelia broke her arm and Tristan got concussion.

I learned a lesson that day. After that I didn't do it anymore, well not like a childs life directly countain much action anyways.

It wasn't until I got into teenage years it got harder again.
My friends got depressed like every other kiddo in their teen's, and eventually my friend Alice started doing drugs.

 That was the thing that hit me the most. Knowing it would happen, but can not do anything about it.
I've cried about it probably more than a hundred times. Atleast I got my first boyfriend. Well if you don't count that teddybear I married in first grade. 

My boyfriend was a dick. I realized I was Lesbian. So I dumped him. It worked out fine until mother found out about it.

She didn't have anything against me being Lesbian. But that I loved someone.

- For you, love is very dangerous, mother told me. 

Her shaky voice was back again. 

- Others can NEVER be something emotional to you, because then you would only get hurted and desparate if you saw something bad in the future, mother nearly shouted. 

How was I suppossed to not love?....