Bucky J. Barnes / S. Stan | One Shot

superhero | Bucky

Note: Here I've changed a lot of things that didn't happen in the movies. This is my first fanficion I have written about Bucky. Originally this short story is in Latvian language for me, so maybe the translation is not as good for story as original but i I tried as much as I could. I hope you like it.

He's not the man I once knew. Back in the 40s he was one of the most coveted men in town, and he was my idol.
When I was young, he was like a superhero to me, but when I was a teenager, he was my first love. And even after almost a hundred years, I still remember how great he looked in shape, as Steve did not suffer when he could not spend time with his best friend in pairs, because there was always a lady who did not live Bucky alone. Almost always when the three of them, Peggy, Steve and Bucky, were free, they went to spend time together. There was times when Peggy took me with her, other times not because the woman was my babysitter. These days it is strange when a ten-year-old child has a babysitter, but at that time it was quite normal.
I still vividly remember my first meeting with Bucky, regardless of that I was only ten years old and he was seventeen. That day my father had gone to work and left me with Peggy. The woman had already warned me that her boyfriend Steve, who I had already met a couple of times, and Steve's best friend Bucky would come to us. At the time, I was a naive, too kind-hearted little girl in front of this harsh world, so I was looking for someone who would make me feel safe. I never imagined that this person would be Bucky. The day he came into my childhood home and my eyes saw him, I knew that he was my idol. The man had come to say goodbye to Peggy that day because he went back to serve for a couple of months, but he came also to meet me. Of course, it made me feel like a princess when such a very handsome man wanted met me. I remember him squatting on one knee in front of me, giving me a wide smile and introducing himself. Even though I was small, I immediately felt a good aura flowing from him, and his eyes, oh my God, how blue they were. For a few hours while both men were with us, I was stuck with Bucky all the time and would not step away from him. I felt safe in his presence. I felt like standing next to a superhero, which I later told him when the man had to leave. Before he left the house, I ran to him, grabbed his hand with both of my little hands, which made Bucky look at me immediately.The man, seeing tears in my eyes, immediately squatted next to me and hugged me. " Why are you crying ? " He asked me then what I answered him that I didn't want him to leave. And of course Bucky asked me again, "Why don't you want me to leave?" Back then, as a small child, I twice without thinking said what I was thinking, and if only I knew when my words would mean a lot to us both in the future. That day, looking into the man's eyes with tears, and with a wide smile on my face, I said that he is my superhero, that I do not want him to disappear. It was the first time I saw tears in his eyes. When Bucky heard what I said that day, he told me with a wide smile that he was and always will be my superhero that he would protect me.
The next time I met him, I was sixteen years old, almos seventeen, almos same age when Bucky first time met me. I hadn't seen the man since our first meeting, but I had heard a lot from Peggy and Steve. Of course I had cried many times and prayed that they would bring Bucky to me, but that was not possible, because the man was always away, serving or had come to the city for a couple of hours or days. As time went on, my little child's emotions shifted to sympathy and eventually he had became my first love. It was just one day I had spent with him, a day when I was a child, and I remember as well as long for every lovely day I mised him. Peggy had given me a picture of Bucky, which he had asked to be handed over to me, so that I would not forget that he was my superhero.Oh, I never forgot about him, of course as a teenager, I realized that I can't show my feelings in the presence of Peggy and Steve, so at times I pretended to have forgotten about him when they talked. If only I knew that Peggy knew about my feelings and that I was holding Bucky picture in my wallet.
I liked the most that years later, Steve and Peggy saw me as their friend, not the girl she raised. As a result, there were days when the two of them, or when Steve was away, Peggy alone, invited me to spend time with them. But no matter how hard I tried, I never felt that same aura flows from Steve as I did from Bucky. I was naive, in love with my babysitters boy best friend, but I still don't blame myself for this day that I don't give up on being naive, and I waited for those years until I met him again. I remember when it was the day before my seventeenth birthday, Steve and Peggy invited me to go have fun with them, and I agree. Of course, at that time have fun was different. I don't remember why, but that day I had put on a dress and put on cherry red lipstick. Cherry red lipstick was one of the things I fell in love with from Peggy.
When all three of as had reached our destination, Bucky looked at us there. I thought that day my heart poured out my mouth, because it was the first time since I saw him in seven years, and since he had become my first love. I remember when I thought about nothing, I approached and hugged him. I didn't care that Steve and Peggy watched, when the women gave me contemptuous glances because I caught someone on whom they threw their eyes, I was happy because I was finally able to meet him again. I felt like a ten-year-old girl again what met him for the first time and told Him that I didn't want him to leave. That evening we all had a great time together, but of course I tried all the time to be with Bucky. That day I finally danced with him, it was my first dance with a man, I had saved this dance right in front of him. One evening Bucky made me fall in love with him again, and finally not only in the memories I had left of him. One thing I adored about him was that man treated me like a woman, not as a small child he first met. At the end of the evening, the man told us that he would leave with Steve the next morning and now he would not know when he would return. It was a pretty big sting for me, but I tried to tweak myself. I remember before we all said goodbye, Bucky pulled me aside and told me the one thing almost any girl or woman who met him wanted heard. That day he promised me that he would go to dinner with me and some dance when he would return, and to which I replied that I looked forward to him. I remember the pleasant feelings that vibrated in me when a man gave me his charming smile and kissed my hand.
When the four of us said goodbye to each other, I don't even know why, but I told Bucky again that he was still my superhero that my thoughts haven't changed yet. It was the second time I saw tears running down a man's eyes. At that time Bucky did not squat down next to me, but came and hug me. The man whispered in my ear that I can feel safe because he will always be my superhero. And after that day, I no longer saw him again. I never welcomed him back to our home, there was no more of our dinner, no more dancing together, no more of his smiles, laughter or hugs. The man was gone, dead. At that time he did not return, not even his body was found, and the worst thing he had died, he was always my first and last love.
These were my worst years in my life. Shortly after Bucky's death, Steve disappeared, Peggy was depressed, a year later my mother died, my father was no longer as before, and I knew that I had to do something about it. I was nineteen at the time when I left. I didn't know what to call myself crazy or smart at the time, but I went looking for a thread because I didn't believe that Steve was also dead. It must have been called a smart decision, because I learned the truth at that time, I learned why Bucky died, why Steve was missing, but could not tell anyone because I was captured.
I went through a crazy hell, so much pain, I remember so much vaguely, there were days when everything was clear but I was under some supervision and the next when I was finally full of mind, I was no longer a normal person. I was no longer a nineteen year old girl living in the 40s, I was a girl with the ability , I was experiment for years, I was frozen, unfrozent and so for many years until I finally got myself in control of my body and got away from them. My whole family, friends, they has alredy dead because I had been kept away for years. I had to be dead too, I was to ninety-three years old but looked like nineteen years old. It took me three years to get used to the new world, the 21st century. I felt, I kept my past to myself and learned the history of my family, what is dead, what is still alive. I learned that there are young superheroes in the world, that World War II was years ago, that we won, that Bucky and Steve did not die in vain. But Bucky, he never left my mind, I still considered him as my superhero.
A few years later, I was already twenty-five, no matter that I had the ability, I finally got the age. I haven't met anyone because I can't understand the men of this century. Even no one fell into my heart, because only Bucky always slept there, I hadn't even tried to get over him . He was my first and last love, and I thought it should stay that way.
If only I had known then that in a month I would meet a charming couple and their two-year-old daughter, and after a while I would become her mother, I would not have believed it. At the time, New York was attacked by creatures from another world, and the little girl's parents were among the victims of these creatures. At that time, I took the little girl into my care and raised her as my child. Of course I told her about shes real parents, how great they were. I told her about my childhood, that I was actually different from others, about my superhero and my friends. That's I miss them and wanna to back, but I'm also happy that she's in my life. When I was twenty-seven and little One alredy four, I had never thought that ever in my life I would still be able to feel the pleasant feeling that warms me from the inside, love. That day, I was sitting in the park with the little one and at her request I told her again the story of how I met Backy, how I told him that he was my superhero, I even showed her his picture, which was still with me. That day, suddenly man came to us, he was standing against the sun so I couldn't see his face from the beginning, but until he told me that his name was Steve and I saw the same Steve from the 40s , he was looking at me, my world turned again. Behind him stood Bucky. There were no more smiles, no sparks, but there was still a sense of security he expressed. This was the third time I met him, and the first time I didn't run to hug him. At the time, I felt confused, I didn't understand how it can be possible that they are alive. That was the first time Bucky came and hugged me. And I felt like I was in the decade again, I would definitely have felt it even longer until the little girl returned me to this world. That day Steve and Bucky told me both of their stories as how it possible that they are both alive, and I tell my own how I got to this day. Both men were in shock that I was alive, that I was so directly opposite them, that I had been living with them in the same city for the last four years and I have a daughter. That day I finally feel really happy again because Bucky was alive, of course I feel hurt when I found out what had happened to him, as he was controlled but had finally gotten rid of the whole past. That day, both men think little one is my biological daughter, but I told them what happened to her parents and that now I was raising her alone . Of course, Steve was wondering why I still don't meet anyone. I remember how I had nothing to answer at first, but then I looked into Bucky's eyes. I no longer saw in there the man I met when I was ten years old, now I was met a man who had gone through hell just like me and Steve, I knew that my love for him had not disappeared, and I feel when everything will be fine now, that everything will be fine. That day, still looking into Bucky's eyes, I replied to Steve, once in old times, my superhero promised me that will take me to dinner when he returns, and I'm still waiting for him. That was the third time I saw tears in Bucky's eyes, but this time, I wasn't the one who hugged him, but the little girl. Maybe because of the memories that reminded me and him, or simply because of the peace that finally appeared to me, I bled myself out in tears.That day I knew that everything would be fine, that I would finally be with him, and I get back my superhero.

Song - Something just like this by The Chainsmokers & Coldplay