I don't know

I don't know
Ugly, lazy, dump, evil, bad
Am I really what they say I am?
I don't know

I don't know
An unknown fear, a creepy smile
A devil looking at me
All the time

Run, run, run don't get caught
Run run run till I am worn out!
I don't know
Feeling numb, no emotions
Just a bundle of guilt! Feeling ashamed!
Continuing the journey with least passion

Passing days waiting for everything. End
Passing days waiting for the beautiful devil to hug me
The devil! The death
Finally, someone will hug me

I looked in the mirror thinking
Do I really like what others say?
A shameful, ugly soul? Am I?

No!

A voice buried deep down within cried
Inner voice, which was a long back strangled
Is still here for me!
I am here for me

Judgements, tags, sayings
Never defined me
A bullshit lie disguised as a pretty truth
I am the definition of me

A precious, beautiful soul
I love myself not because anyone told me to do
But it is my decision to love myself

More than anything
More than anyone else
I love myself
I am whole, an imperfect perfect star
Like other stars
Shinning in this big galaxy
Shinning, glowing litting up ways for everyone

The creeping devil left before I noticed
A melodious life
A marvelous new start
Because it is the life I want
Let's make the best of it
Give my best everyday

I know as I look in the mirror
A warrior not a worrier, a knight not a survivor
Smiling back to me
A colorful symphony of life
The monster is long gone
When I started to love myself.