Sun Arises || YOSHIBIN (On-hold)

01

COMEBACK

I opened my eyes, waiting for I sign of ben beside me the moment I woke up.
I want my Ben to wake me with his little kisses again. I want my Ben to whisper I love you on my ears again.

But.

There is no Ben here anymore.

My Ben is gone.

I cursed at the window, throwing daggers to the sun rising.
The heck, how come it is still rising? How come it is still glowing when my life looses the it's light?
It pissed me off, I hate this f c kin' morning, this daylight and the cold breeze of wind.

I messed my hair as how messed up my life now.
How should I start without him now? How should I even begin this morning knowing I can't feel his warmth before I shut the night up?

I charged my phone so that if it is already full, I will call Ben, again. I will call him until his notification will Burst and he will finally answer my calls.

But now, I have to take a shower.
He may not be here this morning, I will be the to show up on his door step, getting him back.

•••

I rushed everything. I took a bath as fast as possible and I even brush my teeth while draining the bubbles with the shower.
I have to be as early as possible so that when Ben woke up, I would be the first one he will see.

Ben always woke up late, when he is on his apartment, he woke up 11 am and doesn't even bother to ear his breakfast.
He is a heavy sleeper. He loves sleeping especially when I am beside him.

And I'm sure by this time he is still asleep.

I started the car and placed my seat belt on.
I hope he would run into me with open arms again. I hope when I knocked, he will open it with his genuine smile and won't hesitate to hug me. I wish he's just mad like before, I hope he's just mad that when I will kiss him, he will melt and be soft again. Soft for me.

But.

The moment I arrived at his apartment. The door is locked. The window is locked.
The double door is chained.
His car is not  here. The house is silent.
There's no trace of Ben anymore. There's no Ben.

Shit! My Ben is not here.

My Ben.

“Yoshi, I assumed you're here for Ben. But,”
I tilted my head to see where that voice is coming from. I saw Guno. He is Ben's friend.

“Where is he?”

My hand is trembling and trapped the ring inside my fist.
I had a bad feeling I am crying again.

“He left, Yosh. He said that he needed to. To...to leave you.”

With his words.
My world change. My life too.
I turned to be someone who's living for nothing.
But I pursue music again. I ran to the reason why he left. I will pursue music. When my song reached him. He'll remember me.

He might probably comeback. F ck I hate this morning...

To be continued...