Lillian's P.O.V
Dinner was awkward. Nobody really spoke we just ate the pizza. We all put on our pajamas and now we're just sitting in the living room watching television. I can't believe I actually ate meat. I told myself that I would stop. Eventually Hayes says he's going to bed and the rest say they're going outside.
As I'm sitting alone with my thoughts I can't help but feel guilty about dinner.
Maybe you should just...
No.
But you broke a promise with yourself, you ate meat. How does that make you feel?
I don't know.
I'll tell you. Worthless. Fat. Weak.
I know but there's nothing I can do now.
Yes there is. Throw it up.
No I can't somebody might hear me or-
Throw it up.
I can't take it. I'm losing a fight with myself. I run to the bathroom and close the door, I've gotta do this quick before they come back inside. I stick my fingers down my throat like I did so many times last year. I throw up my dinner and even though I know it's not healthy it feels good. A knock on the door scares me.
"Uh, hello?" I ask weakly.
"Lilly it's Matt. Come out to the deck please I need to talk to you."
Oh god. He must've heard me. I shouldn't have done this he's gonna yell at me. I flush the toilet and slowly head outside. I open the patio door but nobody's out there.
"Matthew?"
Out of nowhere Matt starts running towards me and pushes me into the pool. I quickly swim to the top only to find the rest of the boys standing by the pool laughing.
"Matthew!" I stay angrily. "Why did you do that I hate you!"
"Oh come on Lil it's just for vine chill out." He says.
I swim to the edge and climb out. "I've told you over and over I don't like being in your vines. What don't you understand about that?"
"You know what? I don't understand. I don't understand why you don't want to be in vines I mean my friends ask all the time if they can be in my vines. You won't be in my vines or my instagram pictures hell you won't even let me tweet about you!" He starts to raise his voice.
"Stop yelling at me I'm allowed to have some privacy."
"Yeah. Some. What happened to you? Last year you would always be in my pictures and videos."
"I don't like being recognized. I'm shy don't you get that?" We were now full on fighting right in front of Matt's friends.
"It can't be just that Lillian. What else is wrong?"
"I don't want to talk about it just leave me alone!" I ran inside to room.
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Beginnings and Endings (magcon fanfic)
Fanfiction{ ONGOING } When Matthew decides to move to California with his Vine buddies what will happen to his little sister, Lillian as she deals with high school, an abusive father and losing the most important thing in her life: her brother. Will Lillian g...
