The Thoughts Of A Teenager

Falling

i fell in love with you
it kinda hurts
even though i knew what you were going to say
it still hurt
oh stupid me
thinking that you wouldn't change once you knew how i felt
to think i was naive enough to believe you wouldn't leave
but you are
you're already leaving
after such a short time
i guess it was my fault
and even though i see it clear as the day
i'm still here
still hoping
quietly crying over the short time we had
it was too short
couldn't it have stayed a little while longer?
i was enjoying the feeling of being needed
for once in my fucking life somebody wanted my attention
my efforts
my love
but not even my parents wanted me in the end
i got fucked over
physically and mentally
but you were able to see beyond my quietness
beyond the shyness
and you embraced it
until you couldn't no more
so here we are
and i can't even fucking blame you
i can only blame myself
you've always been honest with me
i just can't be honest with myself
i wonder
do you just not care anymore?
what makes a person slowly disappear?
slowly slip our grasp?
i'm gonna miss you
shit
i already miss you
we should've never started this
you should've never started this
we weren't ready
i wasn't ready
all because i did the one thing i promised i wouldn't do
i fell in love with you
and i swear to god
this is the last time i'm asking you if you're okay
if i was really so important and one of the most trusted people in your life
you'd show me
but who hasn't made an effort to talk to me these past two days?
you didn't even open my fucking present
what the hell man?
all because
i fell in love with you