Answer Me

Chapter 1

I used to live life freely, attending work and college. I used to hang out with friends and family and have dinner parties and more. Now my life is sheltered and silent; I no longer attend work and very slightly surviving college. It's all because of her, I can't leave, I can't escape her, She controls me with every step of her well-being no matter what I do. I used to never feel like this, She made me feel loved and happy; But now I fear her. She breaks my friendships, controls my social media, everything in my life. I'm currently home alone right now because she tells me only she's allowed to be making income. After all, I'm too worthless to keep a job and create an income she says. She's also scared of someone flirting or trying to convenience me to leave her. Though she always had a better income than me when I had a job, it doesn't mean I shouldn't work. I've been hiding money under the carpet to help me escape here soon; I live up the carpet and there is a jar in the floor with cash. I hope I can escape her soon but all I can do is save up and try to live life in this toxic home with her.

I went to the kitchen and started making a Steak, Mash potatoes, Broccoli, and some asparagus. My Girlfriend says that we always need vegetables and need to eat healthily because she doesn't want me to get fat because I have to have sex with her.  She never lets me have Soda or anything with high counts of sugar or sodium but she's allowed to have them. She counts the cans every day to make sure I don't drink anything. If I drink the drinks then she beats me with a wooden paddle and then makes me walk or run five times around the neighborhood block after hitting me. I don't know what I did to deserve this, I used to always take her out to eat, buy her gifts, give her everything. We used to be so deeply in love and now, She's In Control, or else I'll die. She never wants me to feel equal to her, I don't understand why she does this to me. 

I heard the door open, "My lovely, I am home!" I looked up to see Jessica, my girlfriend. "Hi my love, I made Steak, Mash Potatoes, Broccoli, and some asparagus for us." I smiled, "Awe thank you, my love, Let me get dressed. Please Set the table and get our plates ready. I want red wine and you'll get water tonight.", I nodded as I started to set the table, light candles, and get out plates and drinks ready to eat. I stood near the table with my hands by my side as I waited for her to allow me to sit and eat dinner, I must listen to her at all times. She came down with damp hair from a short shower and in comfortable clothes, I must always look nice unless she tells me to wear something different. She chooses all my daily outfits, bedtime outfits, and more. "Okay, let's sit and eat my darling.", She smiled at me and sat down. We started to eat, "How was work today my darling?" I asked, She always forced me to call her cute names and not her actual name Jessica. "Oh we had such a busy day at the office, We've received lots of orders today for the facial cleansers and Facial Moisturizers. We will be getting paid extra since the income is so large currently." She spoke as she drank her wine, She worked at a beauty Company and controls Sales. "Oh that's so wonderful my love, I'm glad everyone loves such a perfect product you've helped sell and create." I congrats her and she smirks as we continued to eat our dinner for the night. 

"Okay love, please take a shower and wear these clothes I've set up on the counter in the bathroom. Make sure your hair is fully dry and please wash your face. I will be in bed.", I went to the bathroom and read her note to set a timer for 10 mins. I Only had ten minutes to get ready. I took a 3 minutes shower, dried my hair for 2 minutes, Washed my face for 2 minutes, got dressed which took 2 minutes because my skin was damp. By the time I got into the room it was a full 10 minutes, "Oh good job baby, you arrived right as it hit 10 minutes! Your best my lovely." I nodded, "Thank you." she nodded and patted the bed for me to lay down and join her in the bed. This is the only time I feel loved and safe, She snuggled up against me and kissed my neck, and whispered, "Goodnight lovely." Today was a good day and I will hope tomorrow is a good day because I don't know how much more I can handle when she hurts me.