New Life, New Sin | EDITING

Six - Confusion

When we finished our intimate session, we collapsed onto my bed, entangled in each other's limbs. The only thing missing was his dog. My head rested on Jace's chest and his arm held me tight against him. We stayed that way for a while, no one saying a word. All that was heard was our heavy breathing that eventually slowed until we both had normal heart rates again.

What had I just done? While my body and heart surely missed him, my thoughts felt puzzled. In fact, the feeling of actually being single was just starting to sink in, and it didn't feel too bad. It felt right. Or so I thought. I abruptly got up and jumped to put my clothes on.

He sat up, surveying me. "I can't believe I ever let you go." I froze for a moment before pulling a light blue hoodie over my head. I needed to go for a walk. Or a run. Anything to clear my head. "Where are you going, Sin?"

I remained quiet, walking into my closet to put on matching leggings. When I walked back out, he stood blocking the doorway, still very naked and apparently, ready for round two.

"I need some fresh air, Jace." I said calmly and moved around him only to feel his hands grab hold of my waist from behind. As much as I wanted to sink into his arms, I moved, prying his fingers off of me and turning to face him. "So, you should probably get out of here."

"Sin." He begged softly. "I've never stopped loving you, babe. I only agreed to break up because I know it's what you wanted."

I walked around him to my nightstand and picked up my cell, checking for any missed calls or text messages or anything at all at that very moment. "I'm pretty sure it wasn't just me."

"Well, I was stupid. I made a mistake and I want you back." His voice took on a tone of defiance. "I saw you at Bartonia, Si."

This caught me by surprise because he wasn't really a club guy. But beyond my surprise was my agitation.

"So you saw your ex-girlfriend having a fun time and you didn't like that, so you want me back?" I was inches away from walking out my bedroom door now.

"Yes and I also saw him with another girl. I just wanted to make sure you were okay."

I don't know why I was getting so annoyed but it was exactly how I used to feel when our relationship started to dwindle out. I clasped my hands together, "And now we both got what we wanted, right? Some." 

He closed the distance between us. "I don't like seeing you with someone else, no. And you can be annoyed with me all you want, but that's not gonna push me away. I'm not giving up so easily this time, Sin." He stroked my cheek lightly with his finger. I don't know if it was his determination or the way his touch felt, but my heart did a flutter.

I grabbed his finger and squeezed it gently.  "Thank you for your concern and I hear you, I do, but this is making me really confused, so if you could just give me time to take this in, that would be great." For a moment, my ex boyfriend looked like he was going to object but he nodded, finally moving away to get get his clothes on.

As he did that, I made my way to my kitchen to grab waters from my fridge for us. My feelings felt muddled. When we broke up, it hurt and felt impossible but it wasn't. I was sure I was starting to move on, but him showing up had me questioning my decision.

He smelled like the cologne I bought him from Valentine's Day, calling for my attention when he stepped emerged from my bedroom in his full get up. I handed him his water before leading him out.

"Sin, what we have is real and I don't believe for a second you're over it already." He was right but I wasn't going to admit it.

He leaned in to kiss me, but I turned my face so he met my cheek. I ignored his declaration, and opened the front door so he would just go. I appreciated his enthusiasm and felt pleased with his efforts, but for now, I had a lot to consider.

"I'll hit you up soon, Jace." He opened his arms for a hug and since he wasn't a stranger and someone I loved, I hugged him back. His arms still felt like home, my most safest place.

Lost in the way his very embrace used to comfort me, we kissed. Just as our lips met, the door across the hall opened and there was Kiro who had seen the intimate display. Our eyes connected for a split second, and then he was gone down the hallway as if he was never there.

A/N: Ooo.. what do you guys think Kiro thought of the intimate display? I mean, they're just friends, right? And now Jace has returned... is a good thing? Let me know what you think! Thank you and happy reading. <3