Belladonna ¦§

1.Grief Is Just Lost Love

Numbness was all I felt. It was too fast; everything was too fast.
I never got the chance to say goodbye, or i love you or anything meaningful. Instead, the last words I said to my brother will forever be lost.

After taking a few breaths, I glanced at the clock.

8.30pm.

Food; I need to eat, that's what normal human beings do.

Without considering the irony of that thought, I grabbed a loaf of bread and began absentmindedly making a sandwich.
The moment I started to butter the bread- that's when the numbness wore off. It was almost instant.
Zach was always like the butter in my life; holding everything together.

Now it was quite clear that I was falling apart.

Trying to calm myself down, I leaned my hands on the counter and lowered my head.

Drip. Drip. Drip.

Tears fell messily, creating a puddle on the counter.
With one shaky hand, i reached over to grab a tissue from the pristine dining table.

After wiping the salty residue from my face and the surface then blowing my nose- I finished making the sandwich.
My appetite was nonexistent so I turned and opened the fridge.

Another pang of grief hit me when I spotted something on the top shelf. Attached to a packet of donuts lay a note.

'Bella, two of these donuts are laced with your favourite flower, eat them if you are willing to risk it'

I smiled to myself at the Nickname, trying to prevent the tears from spilling yet again.

With a heavy heart, I tore the paper into small pieces and sprinkled it into the recycling bag.
As painful as the gesture was, I couldn't risk anyone figuring the code out.

I should probably explain-my name is most certainly not Bella and the flower Zach mentioned is not my favourite.

It has the power to destroy me.

Belladonna, deadly nightshade.