How are you? I hope you are happy to be there. But why did you leave me in a broken state? Why! How many dreams we had together, to love each other, to face problems together, and to be each other's world. You can say, that was not your fault to leave me. Of course, that was your fault for letting yourself to be the sadness sponge of everyone, that was your fault for helping others out of trouble and letting yourself down. And see now I have become like you. I got hurt daily by all but I could not hurt others, I helped others but didn't expect others to help me out of trouble.
Dil kehta hai chal unse mil Uthte yeh kadam ruk jaate hai Dil humko kabhi samjhata hai Hum dil ko kabhi samjhate hai
Remembered that day when I met you for the first time in our sweet teens. That was my first day at school as a class 8 student. The weather was very cloudy. Cold breeze was blowing there. Due to the weather I was suffering from a slighter cold. I was in the class but my mind was roaming outside. After sometime I got asleep and that too when class was going on. Luckily that day I sat on the last bench or else I would have been in trouble. After a deep nap, I woke up by a gentle tap on my shoulder and guess who was there, that was you, my love. That was the first meeting of us ever in actual sense. I couldn't forget that scenario. Children were playing and screaming outside, birds were chirping there in a nearby jackfruit tree. But the most soothing feeling was from your aura and sweet body odour.
Rimjhim gire saawan Sulag sulag jaaye mann Bheege aaj is mausam mein Lagi kaisi yeh agan
That was the first time I came to notice you from that close distance. You were a pleasure to watch. I still remember that you were having some short hair style (I think that was Bob cut). Your eyes were like blue lotus with heavy rimmed specs. You were Slim, tall and smart. And the most special thing was your light complexion body tone which attracted me very much. You asked me whether I was okay or not. Then you started your infamous non- stop conversation about yourself and also asked me about myself. I got a bit emotional when you told me that you were an orphan. You told me that you had one uncle living with you but he could not stay at home all week because he has to look after his business outside Tripura.
Ek ajnabee hasina se Yun mulakat ho gayi Phir kya hua yeh na poochho Kuch aisi baat ho gayi
Slowly as days passed we became best friends and then the friendship turned into deep love. If I could not get to see you for a single day my mood would get off automatically throughout the whole day. And that actually caused a lot of suffering when you got very much angry at me and didn't talk to me for 16 days. Do you still remember that incident ? That day my mood was very bad because I had quarreled with my mom at home. At the moment, I thought that I was right. After the class, I came to you and shared all that happened. I was hoping you would support me in that matter but on the contrary you got angry with me for quarreling with my mom. You angrily advised me to apologize to her or else you would end our relationship. But at that time my super ego was controlling me and so, I chose not to apologize to her. Those were very regretting days for me. I was dying to talk to you and You were ignoring me like anything. I was feeling like a thorn on the most beautiful rose. At last when I realized that I was wrong, I apologized to mom. And when you heard that, you just hugged me tightly. You were that much happy. Now I realize why you mean those relationships so seriously, I realized how much a family means to you.
Ab thak chuke hain yeh kadam Chal ghar chalein mere humdum Hongein judah na jab tak hain dum Chal ghar chalein mere humdum
But there is one celebrated proverb I hate the most, Time flies when you are having fun. After sailing for many phases peacefully in the life sea of mine, one cursed tsunami striked our perfect blissed life causing a massive destruction and blankness. 1st March, 2019, in the afternoon, I was waiting for you at the front of the school gate. After a while, your car came to receive you from school. You were very much excited as our result was given that day and your result was fabulous. You were just crossing the road and all of a sudden a tempo hit you at lightning speed and you fell on your back. Your head was bleeding so much. You were taken to hospital. That was the last time I got to see you in material sense. I got to the class in the next academic session. I was literally shocked, my head was spinning and I couldn't decide what to do at the moment. I wanted to burst out in tears but I couldn't. When you were taken to the hospital, I somehow realized that you were no more, my lovelady is no more but I didn't want to believe that. After your demise, your uncle never returned here.
Zindagi ka safar Hain yeh kaisa safar Koi samjha nahi Koi jaana nahin
Now I have nothing to expect from my life other than to cherish those loving memories of you. I don't want to miss you. I want to cherish your memories like a gardener cherishes his orchids. I wish that in any other birth I will be yours forever. And I am waiting for that day. Untill then Good bye my Robin and don't worry for me. I will be fine and smiling.
