People say that being alone with your thoughts is the worst thing possible. I disagree.
Being alone with my thoughts just gives me time to think. My life for the past couple months has been hectic and sometimes I just need time.
Two months earlier
I could tell you some bullshit like i'm a loner but to be honest i've never had trouble fitting in. My brother was on the O line for football so i've been surrounded for as long as I can remember by some of the most popular boys, and every girl wants to talk to me; usually to get into my brother's pants but hey, at least i'm not lonely!
Although I hate being lonely, I love being alone. However, thanks to my big scary brother, guys don't talk to me much so i've never had like a romantic interaction with a boy before. Sometimes im grateful however it's not JUST the football boys he scares away; it's every male that's ever talked to me. like dude i'm 17 and haven't had my first date.
Even though I fit in with everybody I hang out with, i've never felt like they actually want me there. I don't know if that as something to do with trauma or some shit but it sucks. Like i feel like nobody wants me in the group when I know that couldn't be further from the truth, could it?
If I told my friends about this they'd laugh and say i'm just overthinking shit whenever I really am concerned.
Anyway, I head down the stairs wearing a pair of baby Yoda boxers and my favorite gymshark white bra.
I look down at my body and can tell my continuous training has been paying off. I used to be a fat kid in middle school but my sophomore year I decided to take my health journey seriously and now i'm here. I'm so proud of myself and how far i've come.
I slip some bread in the toaster and slap some peanut butter on my two slices. My brother and his friends were so loud I couldn't fall asleep last night, which has left me now tired and hungry.
I open the fridge to get some apple juice to drink. I close the door and nearly jump out of my skin until I realize it's just my brother's friend Elias.
"HOLY FUCKING SHIT ELIAS" I whisper yell. "You about made me piss myself bro, not cool."
"Y/n chill" Elias states. "You're so fucking dramatic it's annoying"
"And you're such an asshole it's exhausting." I exclaim aggravated.
I left the conversation and went to my room after that. Men typically are jerks but my brother and his friends are a different kind of worse. But it's usually just to me bc these boys are the fucking rizzlers to other girls.
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Stellar
Romancey/n has never really enjoyed being in the popular scene. although you get along with everybody and people enjoy your presence, you just want alone time. however that is an unattainable dream due to your brother, Rowan. As the captian of the football...
