the current between us. (j.m)

.10

jj's eyes fluttered open to the sight of john b's ceiling and for a moment the events of last night crossed his mind as nothing more than dream, but then the feeling of river wrapped around his-

Yep definitely not a dream.

He picked up his phone hovering over the girl's contact before texting her.

Maybe leave your house today? or i kidnap you..

He watched the three dots appear and disappear, sighing. He shouldn't be this attached. He felt weak and vulnerable, and jj refused to feel weak. "Yo man you okay?" he turned to see john b, slight anger filled the blonde, anger he couldn't explain. "wha-yeah im fine." He slipped his shirt on before standing up. "we gotta go pick up kie and pope then we're going to tanny hill." Most of his best friends words faded into nothingness because all that was on jj's mind was her.

Meanwhile, river actually got out of bed to shower, but ended up under her covers staring at the pill bottles on her nightstand. The girl let out a muffled groan before sitting up. She looked down at the pills laying in the palm of her hand, and let her mind fill with the vile words of self hate as she swallowed them down. he phone lit up beside her and she expected it to be jj, but it wasn't. it was a name she had avoided for months now, a contact she thought she deleted. All the text read was the words I'm outside, we need to talk.

Slight panic filled her chest as she made her way down the stairs, but she'd never let him know that. "Rafe Cameron in the cut? What a sight." River stepped off the porch a few feet away from the boy. "Catch." Rafe spoke, throwing a bag toward the girl. She caught it, confusion laying across her face as she looked inside the brown bag. "its all the stuff youll eat while having an episode." He mumbled looking to his feet. "just don't starve again..."

River took a moment, processing the fact that he knew every snack from green tea, to ham and cracker lunchables. Truth is when they were together he took care of her. Before the drugs and self hate got involved, there was some sort of love there, love that they both fought for. "Wanna go on the ferry?" His eyes finally met hers, and for some reason jj popped into her head. She shook away that thought before nodding.

River spent the day with her ex, and couldn't lie to herself that it was nice, comfortable. She always liked watching him work and the way he talked, but her mind still kept going back to another boy. The two were walking through town after his job when he spoke. "have you been taking your meds?" The girl stopped, sighing. "Why do you care, just drop it okay."

Suddenly his strong hands gripped her forearm. "God dammit River I do care." His voice was low, but unsure like he wasn't saying what he really wanted too.

"The fuck is going on here?" River and Rafe both turned to see jj, anger fuming around him. The rest of the pogues were standing behind him, the only one really paying attention was kiara. "Get the fuck off her man." jj took a few steps toward the two, gesturing toward races hand still around the girls arm.

"jj he was just getting me out of the house its not-" The girls words were cut off by the blonde speaking. "Nah, bet he had something else in mind.."

At this point, JB and pope were next to jj preventing him from doing something he shouldn't. "The fuck you trying to say pouge?" Rafe stepped forward making river lay her hand on his chest. "go home rafe, please." She turned to jj speaking again. "You don't want to do this here, this isn't the cut, youll get arrested immediately." They all knew she was right, tannyhill was always swarming with cops. She looked back to rafe as he walked away, and a part of her felt guilty.

Kiara wrapped her arm around river pulling her into a tight hug. "Come back with us. I miss you."