Musical Inspiration:
Gravity - Sara Bareilles
"Set me free, I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity..." Why can't I just let you go. I know you'll never devote yourself to me; except I keep thinking that maybe, just maybe you might.
The lies seem to come more naturally to you now. Trying to write what you're making me go through, how bad I'm hurting is a futile attempt, so why try?.....
Because I don't wanna give up; on writing what's on my mind, and on you. Anytime I see you, it's as if my whole mood changes from whatever it was before to happy...except when I see you with them.
It's like your own personal harem. And it disgusts me to my very core when I see that. I try not to let it affect me, but who am I kidding? I'm not that strong. You make me feel weak and insufficient.
So why do I keep on running back to you? You constantly remind me how you don't talk to 'them'...I can't even say their names without feeling the bile rise in my throat; yet any corner I turn I see you with one of them.
Why lie to me then? Why try and 'protect' me from something when you don't actually care about me?
Are my eyes decieving me? Am I creating something in my mind unconsciously that I wish were to happen...something that would help me to get away from you?
So.....so many questions, with the exception of any answers arising. Why am I being sucked into a loop of despair, and sadness? Why can't I just go on living my life the way I want to! No matter what, "something always brings me back to you, it never takes too long..."
