Together Forever

Chapter 46: Insights of bonds

Sanskaar slouched back on the couch lazily as he closed his blazing eyes after surfing through a couple of channels to distract his mind but it only increased his headache and made him drowsy.

Asha walked to her grandson and softly placed the coffee mugs on the table. She knew something was definitely wrong for she has not seen Sanskaar disturbed like that. The contact of warm fingers on his cheeks made his shoulder blades tensed up but eventually relaxed when he knew who it was and held her hand securely like he was scared from loosing that warmth.

He opened his eyes only to see his grandmother's face contorted in worry as she stared at him. Asha sat beside Sanskaar forwarding his coffee mug, he gladly took the mug and sipped in. The coffee was aptly appealing that it reposed his sored body and throbbing veins but not his depressing thoughts.

Asha too sipped her coffee in utter silence giving him enough space to ponder upon whatever he was thinking about until she saw Sanskaar placing his mug on the table stand and lay down to rest his head on her lap. Asha's wrinkled, weak fingers softly ran into her grandson's sleek, midnight hair and Sanskaar shut his eyes closed to seek some comfort.

For some unknown reason, Laksh mother's soft gaze and motherly love made him irked and yearn at the same time. Of course Asha didn't love him any less and infact she and Aravind loved to pamper him a lot but there was this unfilled void of not having his own parents was still raw and hurting in a corner of his heart.

"Girlfriend, promise me that you'll stay with me forever." Sanskaar whispered holding Asha's hand firmly yet not in a hurting way. Asha got startled for a minute hearing him but then a stubble, wistful smile graced her lips.

"You know I'm counting days son. How am I supposed to give you that assuring word knowing I won't be able to keep?" Sanskaar's eyes misted at that. He couldn't even imagine a life without her, it terrified him to an extent that he already brought a strong wave of ache in his heart. His dada's death left him blindsided and completely in shambles, it took him so long to cope up and he will not be able to pick up himself if anything happens to Asha. Just the thought brought him all those shadows that loomed over him.

"Medical reports says you are doing well than before and you say you're counting days girlfriend?" He looked up at her irritated and Asha shook her head in disbelief. She didn't know how to make him understand that death may not always necessarily be connected with health deterioration and the boy would not even listen a word regarding that particular topic 'death'.

"But one day I'll have to leave-- I'm just worried what you would do without anyone by your side Sanskaar. Sometimes I would even think of what if your parents finds you now, I would handover you to them and only then I will be able to rest in peace." Asha mused. Leaving her beloved kid back alone made her worried sometimes, Sanskaar would devastated and she really hoped atleast now he could finally get his own family so that he would be able to move on and have someone to hold him. His eyes shot up hearing that rant of Asha. Sanskaar's jaws clenched tightly and fury ran through his veins with that mention. He sat straight.

"Of course the heartless parents who abandoned their 20 days old baby on the streets like throwing a thrash out of their house." Pure sarcasm dripped in his words and his eyes darkened, Asha sighed heavily. Though it was a sarcastic comment, deep down she knew it was his way of reflecting and displaying the pain he was going through while Sanskaar breathed in rage, "What makes you think I would go to them dadi?"

"But we never know the other side of situation Sanskaar." Asha tried to break through the adamant Sanskaar who stood solid not wanting to break. He shook his head and kneeled down before Asha holding both her hands, "Maybe but that does not them any right to abandoned me. If not for you and dada, can you imagine what would have happened to me?" Tears ran through Asha's cheeks as she cupped Sanskaar's cheeks while his own eyes blurred with tears and his voice broke, turning more heavier.