letters to my Ex-bestfriend

when you run into me in public

Dear you,

If one day, our paths cross on accident and our eyes meet once again, just know that my heart was thumping, and after that once second, I will scold myself for the rest of the day, thinking of ways that I should have talked to you.

I havent seen you in person for a few months now, and I froget how your big brown eyes look, and how long your lashes were. I froget what you dimples looked like in real person, and I froget what you look like in my eyes.

In my eyes, you were so beautiful.

So I probably stared, trying to click in my mind that this is really you, and that maybe I should speak.

But I probably didnt.

And I never will.

You know how afraid I am to speak my mind, and how afraid I am to say hello. Shyness is an understatment. So I probably choked on my own words, trying to understand your reaction to me. 

I pray it was a postitive reaction.

And I pray that one day, we will see eye to eye and smile at the same time. I pray that we might be able to talk it out one day heart to heart, and I pray that one day I can embrace you and tell you how hard these months have been, becasue trust me they were. 

And I pray that you havnt moved on.

Because I cant.

Love Always,

Me