Being a Kpop Idol | READER x JIMIN

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we all went home after that, i feel much better and lighter now that our relationship isn't much of a secret anymore. it feels better. but it's also scary. how will our fans reacts? jimin and jang dp nim said that they will probably be supportive but i can't help feeling nervous and anxious. 'baby' jimin said, 'huh?' i answered, 'you should go sleep' he said and tried to get me off the couch, 'yeah y/n, you have a big day tomorrow.' jin said, 'you don't wanna look like a ghost while telling the whole world you have a relationship with park jimin right?' yuna said and chuckled, 'yeah, army will probably get mad at you for dating tHe park jimin while looking like that' mina said, we all looked over at her, 'it's a joke' she said,

thats the first joke she had made in a long time.

i smiled and chuckled, 'no no you're right. i should really sleep. i'm pretty tired' i said and yawned. 'we should probably leave too' namjoon said, and hoseok nodded, 'we have practice tomorrow', 'really? i forgot' taehyung said and yoongi sighed, 'im gonna get zero sleep again' and jungkook chuckled and said, 'well, it's not like you were going to sleep if we were home right now' which made yoongi give him a death glare, 'anyways, lets go, we'll talk to you girls later, goodnight' namjoon said and opened the door and walked out, 'goodnight baby' jimin said and gave me a kiss before he walked out as well. we waved them goodbye and somi shut the door.

'lets go to bed now, im literally exhausted' somi said and rubbed her eyes, we went to our rooms and i took a shower before sleeping.

i slept like a baby, i didn't get much sleep but i had so much energy when i woke up. it felt great, 'y/n, yoo jieun is here' i hear somi say on the other side of the door, 'okay come in' i said, and there was my stylist with a lot of outfits, as if my huge closet wasn't enough, i smiled, 'i love this' and did a little happy dance, jieun chuckled, 'are you that happy?' she asked, 'yes, i am. no more lies and no more secrets' i smiled, 'i'm really happy for you too sweetie' she said, there are a lot of journalists in front of the house, i had to come in from the back. and even that was really hard' she said while picking up a dress, 'really?' i asked, 'yeah, it's crazy' she said, but she was more focused in the dress than what she was saying. 'maybe you should wear something more formal?' she asked and turned around, 'what is jimin wearing?', i shrugged, 'i'm not sure', she sighed, 'doesn't matter anyways, try this on' she said and gave me a cute outfit and i changed into it,

'what do you think?' i asked with a smile on my face, 'no, no no no' jieun said and searched for another outfit, this time it was a 2 piece from chanel, 'try this'

i took it from her and tried it on, jieun nodded, 'yep, this is it.' she said satisfied. 'i agree' i said while smiling, 'lets go downstairs and show the girls.' jieun said, 'alright' i said, 'are chaeri and seori downstairs?' i asked, chaeri is my hair stylist, and seori is my make up artist. they are sisters. 'yeah they are' jieun answered while walking down the stairs.

time skip

right now we're driving to the venue where the interview will take place. how i'm feeling? nervous, i wonder if the fans waiting outside will be supportive, i wonder if there are going to be haters. will they make disgusting comments? will they throw eggs at me?

i chuckled, that would honestly be pretty funny

'why are you laughing?' jieun asked which brought me back to earth, 'oh, nothing' i smiled and looked down at my lap. 'it's going to be fine, y/n. i think it's going to go great and i don't think there will be rude people waiting for you there' she gave me a warm smile and reached for my hand. as if she's read my mind.

i smiled and looked out of my window, 'we're here' the driver said,

my smile faded as soon as i saw people holding up posters with 'LEAVE HIM ALONE', 'HE DESERVES BETTER' and 'YOU DONT DESERVE HIM'

'oh man' jieun sighed, 'these girls have no shame' she said mad. i once again looked down to my lap, 'it's okay, i kind of expected this to happen' i smiled and made eye contact with jieun,

i could see she felt bad for me, the look in her eyes says enough.

'y/n-' she tried, 'i mean, he's from the famous korean boyband called BTS and he is jimin. who wouldn't be mad at me for snatching someone like him?' i chuckled, 'but even so, you're still a human with feelings. they can't say these-' she got cut off again,

'we really have to get out now ladies, the bodyguards are here' the driver said, 'alright, well, here goes nothing' i mumbled and got out,

girls holding out the posters, making their own sort of hate-chant.

childish.

as if they would ever have a chance with jimin if i didn't start dating him.

i slowly shook my head, put a smile on my face and smiled at them. i won't give them what they want. i can give them a lot, my time, my effort, my music, my performance, my love, you name it. but i won't let them take away my happines. they took sooyoung from me. i shouldn't have let that happen, ever.

TW: suicide mentioned in the upcoming part, you can skip the part that looks like this message. (cursive, bold etc.) if needed!!

these are the same kind of people that would throw a shit ton of hate on you, ask you to go kill yourself, and when you actually do, they feel bad. they feel bad and say that they have always loved you and don't know why you did what you did. they post you on their story and they beg you to come back when it's too late. such hypocrites. humans are the most evil of all creatures. we have a brain, we know how to think, how to talk, how to see and how to hear.

but do we know how to think when we see something or someone we don't like? do we know what to say when we see something or someone we hate? do we think when we hear something or someone we don't like? or how to act maybe?

but what if we were in that situation, and another person is in our place. would we like that? would we want that?

we would not.

and that's what makes us evil. we like hurting others to make ourselves feel better. we're selfish.

the devil makes humans do bad things to make himself feel better too. to make it feel like he's not the only bad one 'alive'.

the devil hurts humans to make himself feel better. he's selfish. we're selfish.

aa its my bday, hi ily ty for reading!!