♤Supposed to be dead♤

Chapter 1|| I WANNA END IT ALL!

Tears dropping on the hospital floor, the flatline sound continuously getting louder and louder. Footsteps from the panicking doctors heard all over, they tried everything. Everything?... did they actually do everything they could? The poor girl's thoughts clouding in. She could hear the despair in her father's screams. Her mind couldn't comprehend what was happening.

Did she really lose her mom? Her mom that gave birth to her and gave her everlasting joy?

'no.. this is not happening!..' many thoughts similar to this flooded the father and daughter who lost the love of his life and the mom she oh so loved.

19:22 time of death

The word both despised.

Her mom died right in front of her poor little eyes. Hours came that felt like seconds of crying, the nurses came. It was time to say goodbye. Eyes widening not able to accept what happened, her father threw a fight of screams leading the doctors to call security. Picked up by the guards, they were escorted out. She could see his father's eye twitching while streams of tears came running below it.

The time came. The time for the funeral. The father and daughter never talked during the past days. Their comfort were their own rooms. Dragging herself from her bed, she went to the closet and picked black clothing for her mother's funeral. It happened. The day she never thought she would endure at a young age. Dressed in a black dress, she pulled her shoe boxes and put on black converse. Hesitating, she twisted the door knob, she sighed and shook the feeling off.

The funeral had passed, her dad never socialized with her. They never socialized with each other. A few months passed, her dad started to drink. He had a problem with drinking but her mom and her stopped him. They were a happy family. Her dad also developed aggressiveness. He would yell at poor Y/n L/n for no absolute reason. Sometimes it was because he didn't have money to buy beer. He stopped working a few years ago so he asks for money from his friends making him have several depths.

Y/n attended a public school because they weren't I mean, she wasn't able to pay for the tuitions in private school. She would get bullied, some were the sons/daughters of the people her dad had depth with. One of the teachers lower her grade than her actual because her dad also has depth with him. Of course. Y/n's dad would win the noble prize for the person most in depth. The students would beat the shit out of her. She would almost everyday come home with a black eye or a few bruises. Of course, her father never cared or noticed as he was never home. It was like he abandoned her. From then on, she was more scared of abandonment than she ever was.

During the many horrible beatings from both her dad and students, she learned how to fight back. Some stopped bullying her but some acted all tough and kept trying to beat her but with all the anger and despair in Y/n, she easily defeated them. Oh and if you wanted to ask, why couldn't she just report this to the principal about the students and teachers? Well, she tried. Guess who the principal was? The teacher. So she couldn't do anything about it.

There was one teacher who was nice to her. She would give spare food and would eat with her at lunch. But unfortunately, she resigned leaving her in the dust. She often prayed 'Come back, miss Nathalie.'

Though after all of the horrible things that happened to her, she would always try to help animals. They were her only friends. Her comfort. She would suck up everything.

Until today. But today she grew VERY tired. During school, she often dazed of with the thought of ending it all. She thought about many ways to do that less hurtful and maybe a tiny bit fun. Finally thought how she would end it. A light bulb mentally came. She would-

Ring ring

The bell rang. The teacher that was tormenting-, I mean, lecturing the students got cut off by students standing up with their school things. Y/n sighed as she was growing impatient. She wanted to do it. She was sure. Quickly, she gathered all her scrambled stuff and chucked it in her bag. Thinking she was gonna get of the hook, the douchebags that were bullying her since elementary blocked the door with an ugly grin. They tried to punch her but she caught it and kicked them were it hurts leaving them groaning in pain. Not wanting to cause a scene, she quickly ran back to her house.

She pushed the door, and threw her bag beside her. She smiled hoping that everything would be stopped. She would meet her mom. It was around 6:30, making Y/n have time before jumping. She decided to climb the Eiffel tower. And if she fell on the way up, her goal still wouldn't be her ruined. Her goal was to die.

Running to her door, she flopped on her bed and squeezed the pillow tightly and exhaling loudly after.

It had been an hour and a half. Now, 7:30. She jumped out of her bed and clenched her fist with determination. Going through her ajar door, she grabbed the key from beside the door and put it underneath the rug just incase her dad would come back. She stood back up and headed to her destination, the Eiffel tower

Y/n's POV
Finally arriving, I inhaled the fresh air which will be soon filled with scatters of my blood. Going near eiffel tower, I mentally gave my self a nod and started to climb. Of course the people didn't notice as they were busy trying the ice creams and enjoying the mesmerizing view. Halfway off the tower, I look down and smiled happily. 'Mom, I'm on top of the world now.'

I was on top of the Eiffel tower. The wind gently touched my s/c skin. Making my hair wave around like waves in the ocean. Inhaling, a big one. I nodded and fell. It felt like the wind was trying to catch me but failed. Sadly, I got the attention of the tourists. They screamed while pointing at me, some were taking videos and if I say so myself, rude. I was halfway down, I couldn't help but smile ear to ear. Am I finally gonna meet my mom?