[Mature content warning. This chapter contains domestic abuse.]
After the war I lost everything, I clung onto the only things I had. The summer back home was hard for me. I was alone, I pushed people out of my life until I had no one, well close enough. So many things were difficult for me that I didn't come back to hogwarts for my final year until after Christmas. Im not the same person anymore. I don't think anyone could be after that.
Ive been in a hole for a while. I have no motivation or will to do anything. Everyday is the same, wake up, go to class, see Draco, go back to my dorm and sleep. Oh yeah there's that, me and Draco. We became a thing about a week ago. It wasn't the first time, I think we don't have much besides each other.
It's about 2am now, January 13th, Lilith is sitting in the windowsill of her dorm looking at the ocean.
She shares a dorm with her sister, Andrea, they've had their ups and downs but they love each other to death. After she watched her sleep for a few more moments she turned away and got up.
She threw on a black cardigan and scribbled on a piece of parchment "you know where - L" and wrapped it up tossing it to her familiar. Her cat, Azraq, stared up at her with a look she couldn't quite place. But he took it anyways and headed to Draco's dorm as Lilith left. She headed to the balcony where she would usually go late at night when she gets like this.
It was cold and windy, the breeze whipped Lilith's hair around violently but she ignored it by tucking the dark strands of her black hair behind her ears. She dug in her pocket and found her lighter and cigarette pack.
It's bad I know, but it's become a habit and im used to it now. I don't like it either and Draco would kill me catching me smoke this, which he will pretty soon but honestly I just don't have the energy to care anymore. It at least makes me feel something.
She took a long drag letting the all too familiar smoke fill her lungs and slowly exhaling it back out. Footsteps approached behind her.
here we go.
"Lilith" Draco said in a very unhappy tone. "Hello Draco." Lilith replied not turning around still gazing into the open. He walked up beside her and glared her down "What did I say about those?" he demanded through gritted teeth, but today Lilith wasn't having it. "The sky is lovely tonight isn't it?"she replied unbothered. "I said..what did I say about those?" Draco repeated. "I don't know, what did you say" she said still not turning to face him.
He lunged in a swift move and grabbed her wrist causing Lilith to gasp and he forced the cigarette out of her hand not letting go of me. "Hey jerk!" Lilith shouted wriggling out of his tight grip. "Stop with the annoying attitude" Draco spat back at her. "If its so annoying then go away." she retorted harshly. "Why are you always like this." he said annoyed sitting down on a perch nearby. "I don't know maybe because this year has sucked for me, a lot actually, sorry if I'm not happy go lucky every second!" She said frustrated turning to face the sky again."Oh not this again, its always about you and your horrible life isn't it, why can't you appreciate the things you have like us for once?" Draco said coldly.
There was a moment of silence between them where she finally just gave up. "Yeah right..its my fault, sorry." she responded. "Am I not enough for you or something , do I not make you happy?" Draco said standing up and getting closer to Lilith causing her to back up slowly towards a wall. "I didn't say that, it's not like that" she responded softly trying to grab his hand.
"Show me then." he said coldly, grabbing her wrists and shoving her mouth onto hers without a word. His lips suffocated her as he kissed down her neck roughly leaving small marks everywhere keeping her wrists pinned so she was unable to move.
