So I sit in a dark room
remembering your face.
it kills me to know you're
not mine anymore. The
only thing that makes
the pain go away, is the
music. so, i sit back. tears
stream down my face, and
i let the music play.
it soothes the broken heart.
makes the pain subside, even if just
for awhile. later on, when the
music's gone. it'll hurt again.
but i'll just plug in my headphones
block out the world, close
my eyes, allow the tears to fall
down my face, and i'll
let the music play.
just let it go. don't choose songs,
let it play through them all.
but i get to our song, and the
tears flow faster then before.
i go to hit next, see our picture
haven't had the heart to change it.
i see the way we loved each other.
remember the way your lips felt
against mine. the way i loved your
hand, trapped in mine. you looked at
me with obvious longing in your eyes.
i see you in the hall. looking at each
other. how do you move on so
quickly. i dont know how i'll ever love
again. and all her friends are basically,
planning your wedding. so i'll quickly
look the other way, grab my headphones.
shove them in my ears so hard it hurts.
and I let the music play.
And the pain will slowly stop.
after awhile, i'll move on
they'll forget we loved at all.
slowly, memories of us will
disapear alltogether. I wont utter
your name. won't speak of the heartbreak
i felt. and i will love again. but you left
a scar on my heart. one that
will be there forever long
and those nights, when its late,
and i cant sleep cause every time i
close my eyes. visions of us, are splayed
in front of me. i awake with a start.
and i cry silently. only one thing i can do.
grab my headphones, plug them in and
let the music play.