" Cy, panganay ka responsable ka dapat sa bagay bagay dito lalo na sa kapatid mo, intindihin mo yun wag mong patulong yung kapatid mo kung binabastos dahil yun sa ugali mo! Wala kang karapatan na sila dahil hindi magulang Ate kalang." - Mama
" Cy anak, alam mo naman na malayo yung loob ng kapatid mo sakin, kaya intindihin mo nalang na para sakanya yung ginagawa ko." - Papa
" Oh kamusta ka Elle? , dalaga kana nagbago kana dati naalala ko napaka rebelde mong bata, ngayon naku seryoso naba yan? " - Tita/ Tito
" Uy si Elle, laki niya na no?, dati naalala ko bata pa siya nun that time ah let's say 4 or 5? Then I heard that tito Y***** take advantage to her and she actually said it na para bang nalaro daw sila." - Cousins
I always hear that word everywhere when I'm with them. I don't know why it's hard for them not to go back to the past and realize that it's not okay with me.
They are my family, in blood and flesh but why, why do I not seem to belong to this family?
Many people say that your family is your home because they are always there by your side but why isn't it like that for me?
Are they really my home? in every second, minute, hour, day, week, month and a year I have never experienced that I am part of them. that I am not part of the home I had.
But maybe I'm right, that I'm not part of the family I have. And maybe it's time for me to find the family that will make me feel like experience what I never felt. It's time to find a home.
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Finding Home
Spiritual"It's simple, I thought that family is my home but I was wrong, so I find it on my own." - Cyella " She is more precious than rubies." Proverbs 3:15
