"Because no matter how hard I hit the ground, I still crave the fall."
My favorite book was getting so depressing and was totally ruining my chill mood. I was currently situated near a window inside of Brooke's winter cabin at Hutcher Creek. The frosty chill was nipping at my toes and nose so I decided to nestle by the fire with my treasured novel "Stupid Love" while sipping on some piping hot chocolate. Brooke, Lucas, and Hannah were all skating in the creek and i was honeslty glad to have some alone time. The events prior to our arrival at Hutcher Creek were quite devastating if not exhasuting. Finding out that your 2 year boyfriend was cheating on you with you step sister doesn't really impact a person positively. Memories of Mason's kisses, hugs, and sweet nothings still haunt me in the dead of night. It's been almost a month since I found him and my step sister , Audrey, lip locking in my car on the night of my birthday. Perfect timing huh? However, it's not so easy getting over your first love. We shared so much in common and I genuinly loved him and, believing he felt the same, I gave up my virginity for him.
But anyways, ever since then I've found myself somber, dreary, and am often scared that I'm a burden to my friends, family members, and basicically anyone i associate myself with. That's why I decided it was time to get away for a while. Escaping the real world, in a sense. This trip has actually improved my behavior and has lightened up my life a little. I've recently discovered my passion for phootgraphy and hiking, both had proved to be great distractions from the dark, opressive thoughts that tend to creep into my mind once in a while.
