One Shots 102

OS14: Second Chances

Second Chances

"Ma, is it bad if I believe that hindi lahat deserve ng second chances?", tanong ko naman kaya napangiti naman ito saka ako sinulyapan.

"Hmm, how can you say so?", sagot niya naman kaya napahinga naman ako ng malalim saka nagsalita.

"Kasi kadalasan rin, dahil sa pagbibigay ng chances sa ibang tao, tini-take for granted na tayo. And, if sinadya naman nila, then why give them second chance? Para magbago? How sure are we na magbabago sila? It would be absurd if they'll change for us, for the sake of our peace of mind.", ani ko naman kaya napatango naman si Mama. Tinaasan naman ako nito ng kilay. It's as if she's asking me to continue to talk.

"We can forgive people, it's fine, but giving all of them second chances? I think we should think better before doing so. Kasi sayang, sayang ang oras at pagkakataon na ibibigay mo sa kanila kung ang ending rin ay babaliin at babalewalain lang rin nila iyong binigay mo.", just like what Papa did to you.

Gusto ko sanang idugtong but I don't want her to be sad. Mom's the best mother I could ever had. She's the best wife that I've ener know as well.

She's the ideal type of a woman, na siyang sinayang lang ni Papa. Mama gave everything but in the end she received nothing as the end of the bargain. Wala siyang natanggap mula kay Papa except for the pain that he's been giving all these years.

"Is it because of your Papa, sweetie?", tanong niya naman kaya natahimik ako saka napatitig sa kanya. Napalunok naman ako nang lumapit ito sa akin saka ako niyakap.

"There's nothing wrong about that, sweetie. But giving second chances is also sign of love and hope. Mahal mo iyong tao kaya pagbibigyan mo ng isang pagkakataon na magbago siya at itama iyong mali niyang nagawa para sa'yo.", aniya kaya nailing naman ako.

"But you always end up getting hurt.", sagot ko naman kaya natawa si Mama.

"Sweetie, that's part of loving. And no, I wasn't expecting something in return. Lahat ng ginawa ko para sa Papa mo ay akin lang. It's all in me, he wasn't asking for it, ako ang kusang nagbigay so he wasn't responsible for giving it back.", sambit pa ni Mama kaya napasimangot ako. Why does she sounded like a masochist?

"But--Amd I already know that fact na mahirap na siyang baguhin pa. But there's no harm in trying. And I love your Papa just because I do so. Not because I wanted him to love me too.", sambit pa uli ni Mama kaya napasimangot ako.

"What I am trying to point it out is that, we all deserve the second chances that we shouldn't have. Deserve natin ang second chances but that doesn't we can have it unlimited. Kasi lahat naman tayo nagkakamali. Lahat naman tayo may tsansang magbago, iyon nga lang may ibang hindi talaga iyon magawa-gawa.", ani pa ni Mama kaya napabuga nalang ako ng hangin saka tinitigan si Mama. I can see pain in her eyes, but there's no regret in there.

"Have you ever regret knowing Papa, Mama?", tanong ko naman at umiling naman siya.

"No, and that won't happen. He's accountable for my pain but my happiness as well. That's how love works, my darling.", tanging sagot ni Mama. He really loves Papa isn't she?