Because of the pandemic, you can't go outside to meet and have physical contact with people, that's why I made an RP account.
(An RP account is basically an account where people roleplay and do other stuff they want)
At first I didn't really have that many friends because I'm scared of talking to other people, but then I was added to a group chat, there I made a lot of friends who have the same interest as mine. I added some members to my RA because I had a hard time switching accounts, and I needed to use my RA for school purposes.
But unfortunately as some time passed, the members of the group chat left one by one, so I was left all alone again. I couldn't get in contact with the members I was close with because they either changed their names or deactivated their account.
That's why I decided to take a break from RPW for awhile.
After months of not using my RP account, I decided to open my RA and reacted to a post that I found funny, i didn't know that the person who posted jt was a former member of the GC, and he messaged me saying
"Ngayon ka lang naka online?"
I was confused at first of course because I don't know him, and then I started to back read our old convo and remembered who he was.
I replied with, "Parati naman ako online ah?"
And then we started chatting for days to the point that it became a norm to chat with him.
I don't really know what came to me but I realized I was developing feelings for him, I don't know if it's love, just as a friend or just because I liked the attention that I never received before, I mean come on I'm a beginner at love and he always manage to make me laugh and put a smile on my face whenever he message me. So I assume that I like him.
I started giving hints here and there but I think he doesn't really get it
So yeah, I decided to confess my feelings to him and let me point it out that it was my first time confessing to someone, so I was nervous as fuck.
After I confessed, he just chatted with me like nothing happened, like I didn't even confess.
I think it was a month later that I decided to visit his account and saw this
(Refer to the pic above)
And when I saw that I-
Okay this may sound dumb but I got jealous over just that, and when I stalked the posters account I just lost it, it felt like my confidence went down the drain and anxiety was taking over my mind.
I couldn't think right at that moment, even though it may just be some dumb dare, I ruled out that possibility because I was in a mess.
So I just ghosted him
I deleted our convo, cleared out our nickname and just when off of social media for a while because whatever I do I always think of messaging him of what my days was like, and when I start to forget him he just randomly apper.
Call me a coward all you want but I'm so sick and tired of people leaving me after entering my life, so I did that.
