Journal

Essay: Negative Experiences and their Outcomes

       Throughout anyones life, there will always be negative things. Those things that bring tears to your eyes and heat on your face. Where you punch walls and break things and curse the world and everything on it. Negative experiences are inevitable but, good things can come from them if you simply just open your eyes. Clean the clouds away from your eyes and see the beauty of what has happened now. How you are stronger, wiser, and more experienced than you will ever be now that those negative emotions swirled inside of you and left a stain that cannot ever be washed away.

      Currently, I am the only junior, super-kart qualified, girl at G-Force Karts. When I first started racing, I was horrible at it. Always hesitant about the speed of the go-kart. Well one day I was going faster than usual and I came up around a turn before . I drove straight into a wall, the impact knocking the breath out of me. I remember thinking I was going to die! But one of the workers, who I am now great friends with, came and got me out of the kart. Like anyone else, I didn't race for a while but now, I've gotten stronger from that. Super-kart qualified and making great times, I'm more comfortable with the karts just because of that one wreck. Of course I've had plenty more since then, but because of that first experience, I am now stronger than ever. Living proof that bad experiences, even the tiny one, can have a huge and amazing impact later in life.

       At a very young age, too young to remember anything, my parents divorced. The information I give out on these simple lines are based simply off of stories told by my parents. The true story does not exist. Only does it exist on opinions. Though, that is not the point. Their fights led to divorce which led to a complete different direction in my life. Having to endure their endless court battles and fights and arguments made me feel like the word upset was an understatement. I loved my step parents but I wished for a happy ending, a normal family. Though, on a more positive side, it made me wiser. Through all the sadness I went through, I made many different decisions. Never would I get divorced. Going through that experience made me wiser knowing that divorce would not end well when I have children. Never would I marry a person if I wasn't one hundred percent in love with them. So because of these negative experiences, I am wiser, proving once again that negative experiences don't just stay that way.

        At the age of eleven, I was pulled out of church to go say my goodbyes to my grandmother. That day I had prayed on the car ride to the hospital that I would have just a little bit more time with her. The one who scolded me for doing bad but also inspired me to do so many creative and amazing things. It seemed like the moment she died time forze. Everything was in slow motion as if every time was mourning for our loss. I can't say i'm happy that she died but I know I can say this. Because of her death, now I can be prepared for the others that will follow. Now I know how my family will react and I can help them get better. That has made me more experienced for what is to come.

          My only advice is that when negative things happen, always know there will be something good out of it. Unless you're the one who died in which, no one really knows what happens after that. The point is, there's really no such thing as a negative experience if something good happens out of it, now is there?