nct one-shots

Anxious~Ten

Generalized Anxiety Disorder ( You feel excessive, unrealistic worry and tension with little or no reason). I was diagnosed with it at the age of 12. It's really not a big deal to me since it's been around 7 years since. However it does pretty much suck depending on medication at times. It's funny really, when you look at me, I don't seem so introverted or shy. I talk a lot, smile a lot, joke a lot, laugh a lot. Being social is like a distraction from my anxiety.

I'm not really what you would refer to as popular but I know about a few things here and there. I don't have many friends that I talk to other than the group of idiots I hang out with. There's Kun, Winwin, Lucas, Xiaojun, Hendery, and Yangyang. There's also Ten but he's usually quiet. He's not necessarily quiet unless I'm around. I don't know, but it does make me think sometimes that maybe I'm too much. It's strange but I did develop some feelings over time as I saw how amazing he is as a person.

None of the boys know about my anxiety despite knowing me since high school, but how the hell do you break that news to your friends without looking like an attention seeker? Plus it would just bring the whole mood down. I know you may be thinking that based off what I've said so far may not seem like I have anxiety but I've perfected the act of faking a non-anxious personality. Unfortunately, it does not last long as it all breaks down the minute I go home.

"BOO" someone shouted as they gripped my shoulders causing me to flinch. I look up to see Hendery with his hands still on my shoulders.

"Holy shit you scared the hell outta me," I hit him back. The rest of the boys followed into the cafe while talking and laughing per usual.

"Ah I already ordered and bought all of your drinks," I told them as they took their drinks. I didn't get one because I'm not a big fan of coffee and I was writing in my journal.

"Ayooo what's that broski?" Lucas grabs the journal from the table. "Wait no Lucas give that back." I plead as he runs around the cafe. Trying to catch him, I accidentally trip onto Ten causing him to spill his drink.

"Oh my- I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to-" He cuts me off in an angry manner. "What is wrong with you?! You could have just waited for Lucas to give your stupid journal back but instead you spill my coffee on my favorite jacket! Why are you always so clumsy and loud?! Sometimes it's just too much!" I couldn't even say anything. My heart started to ache and tears were threatening to show.

Author POV

Ten slowly began to process what he had just said. He didn't mean to say it like that. He was just angry and frustrated. Guilt overcame him as Y/N grabbed her bag running out of the cafe. Something had dropped out of the bag.

"Ten, what the fuck dude," Yangyang finally spoke. "What we're you thinking?" Kun handed napkins to Ten.

"Good luck telling her how you feel after this one," Xiaojun rolled his eyes. "Maybe you need some time to yourself, we'll go find her" Winwin suggested.

Yup you guessed it, Ten likes Y/N. Despite never wanting to admit it, he knows deep down inside. He loved to see her smile, hear her laugh, and just being around her. He really just doesn't know how to show it. What he said to her earlier was just pure frustration from dance practice.

Ten remembered the thing that fell out of her bag and the journal that Lucas had snatched from her. What would she need medication for? "Oh no" he quickly opened the journal to see pages of her thoughts throughout the day. It was shocking to see that her thoughts do not reflect the surface of her personality.

"God I have to go find her" Ten runs off to go search having an idea of where she went.

Y/N POV
I can't believe that just happened. I didn't mean to. It was an accident. The way he yelled at me. I cant stop thinking about it. I know he didn't mean to, he had mentioned having a hard time at practice. I just can't help but to still feel hurt. (A/N: Y/n is in a garden near the cafe that she goes to very often)

I rummage through my bag trying to find my medication only to find nothing. Fuck. I can't help but cry. However I started breathing heavier than usual. Everything seemed like it was coming down on me. Tears came out nonstop and my head began to pound. 

Please not right now

Someone please help me

Please make it stop

"Y/N! Y/N! Where are you?! It's me Ten and I have your medication. Please I know you're here," I heard a voice call out. Suddenly it began to rain.

Say something dammit

Wait but what if he yells at me again

I don't know if I wanna see him

He already hurt me enough

An umbrella opens and a pair of arms surround me along with a chin resting on my head. "I'm so sorry, I didn't mean anything I said. I should have been more careful." Ten said handing me the medication and a water bottle.

It was quiet between the two of us. I took the medication and felt a little more at ease. "Y/n I'm so very sorry. I should have never lashed out on you like that" Ten apologizes breaking the silence.

"Ten it's fine, I'm okay now. Thank you for bringing my medication here." You reassured him.

"Why didn't you tell us? You know, about your anxiety." He asked looking at you.

"I thought it was embarrassing and well I'm so used to faking it, it comes naturally." I look down in embarrassment.

"It's okay I understand," Ten laid your head on his shoulder noticing how tired you looked.

A bunch of noises come from the entrance of the garden. The rest of the group finally found you. However the position you and Ten were in, was one the others would not take lightly.

"Woah are we interrupting something?" Hendery lift an eyebrow.

"Hyung did you finally tell her you like-" Yangyang was cut off by Winwin slapping the back of his head while Ten's face heated up. You tried your best to not laugh.

"Woah hold up Y/n, don't laugh, everyone knows you like Ten back." Xiaojun smirked in victory.

"So you like me huh?" Ten whispered making you red and flustered. "Uh no?" you gave up.

Ten pulled you in closer while the other boys stared in disgust. "Aight we out, meet you back at the apartments" Lucas said catching up with the others who began walking.

"Well, now I am your boyfriend and you are my girlfriend," Ten blankly stated

"You're not even gonna ask?" You raised an eyebrow at him.

He chuckled, "There's no need, you love me and I love you. That's all we need."

"I didn't agree though," you joked.

"Don't matter, your heart agreed," Ten said as you laughed at how cheesy it was.

"Whatever, I love you idiot"

"I love you crazy"

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YUHHHH FEELIN SINGLE AGAINST SO I MAKE YOU GUYS SUFFER WITH ME BY WRITING AN AWFUL FF ABOUT CHEESY LOVE