It's her story

DEAR DIARY

CHAPTER  1     DEAR DIARY

13. 05. 2021

Hey dear diary ,I know it's the first time I am writing a journal that's because I took a resolution but I did'nt get myself to write something ,because I was practically living in hell. I don't even know why I  took science it's not like my parents pushed me or something. It's just that I love discovering new things. OKH!! I am a nerd but ,It's not like I wear thick glasses, my hair is all a birds nest and I have zero fashion sence ,It's absolutely not like this rather. According to me I am more of cool kid, Noh Noh that does'nt mean I was part of the bully and bitch group. I don't even like those fake bitches, I know I am kind of arrogant and all and it's hard for me to make friends , not like It matters. I love to be alone because I know that everything in this world is momentary and nobody stays .So, people out there don't love anyone more than yourself. oh I forgot to write the main thing .So. I surprisingly  made it to the IIT yeah on my first try. But whatever don't ask me my rank. I am happy that I cracked the exams not because I would have commited suicide, If i would'nt have. My Brother and I beated that if I made it to the IIT he would buy me a Mac book and a I Pad .He thought that he will win , but guess what Now he will go broke. As I am telling I as well tell you about my fantastic life, and my pretty messed up family . My dad and my mom met during collage days .The surprising  thing being that my mom was kinda player and my dad on the other hand belived in eternal love guess what .They end up together and had me and my brother , My brother Zane and me Zivah are five years a-part ,My brother being the smart and brilliant one scored a job at google .So let's fast-forward a bit because I don't want to bore you and make it a boring journal ,So when I was fifteen and my brother was twenty my mom decided to devorce my Dad reason being unknown , and it's been three years and when ever I try to ask my dad about that he changes the topic ,so might as well leave it be .I chose to live with my dad because I was always a daddy's girl my brother being a adult was not bothered. But just because I choose my dad does'nt mean that I love my mom. The only good thing that came out of this was that my mom finaly got the chance to pursway her dreams. Not that my dada would have stopped her.We live in Banglore , we refers to me and my dad. My dad works at Tech-High it's a software company .And my mom is wildlife photographer , pretty crazy wright .The surprising thing being that neither of them moved on .And when ever I think that ,The only thought I have is that .This love is a complete bullshit what is good in loving someone ,and than end up being all miserable. It's better that we try to love ourself. Yeah I qouted RM and why not, He is one of the most inspirational person I ever came across and not only him the whole band inspires me.I found about them during 2016 and than in 2017 their song " BOY WITH LUV " with Ft.Hasley , broke records in the music industry . The phase of my life when my parents were opting for a divorce ,It seems that I was ok but I was all broken if not for them I would have lost myself somewhere. They taught me that bad times are bound to come and that we can not do anything about that and when ever I feel like everything is going all wrong I remember that once Joonie (RM) said that "It's the darkest before the sun rises" .It always makes me all motivated and encourages me to walk towards my dreams. I have'nt even decided what I want in life and than again Suga said "that it's okay to not to have a goal in life ". I am literally so much inspired my them.

"Zaha I am home"

Authors note:

it's just some back story .

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