My heart belongs to you

Dorm

Yachis Pov: 

And there I was, standing infront of a big door made out of oak wood, the smell of beer reached my nose and a cold wind made me shiver. Someone must had their window open. I reached my hand out to the cold metal handle of that old looking door. I wasn't ready for a conversation with anyone, I wasn't ready for anyone but my mom would kill me if I gave up my dream just because she dumped me. There was no going back now. Shortly after I had opened the door a bright smile greeted me. A girl with long brown hair, dark skin in a pink strawberry dress stood infront of me, the plant in her hand nearly touching me. 

"You must be Yachi Hitoka my new roommate." she said still smiling. 

"Yea, that's me" I responded trying to smile, too. 

She asked me where I was from and what my subjects were. And I tried answering all her questions,but I got distrackted by the dress she wore, it was the same she had worn on every picnic date. 

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"Hitoka can you give me a blueberry?" she asked.

"Yes, of course love." I said smiling. It was lunch break and we sat on the roof of the school, scared that one of the boys on the team would find us. 

She looked me in the eyes, the heat of the sun surrounding us.

"Do I have something on my face?" I asked, my cheeks slowly turning red. 

"No, you are just beautyful. I love you Yachi Hitoka" she answered smiling. 

Before I was able to say that I love her too she kissed me lovingly. I could feel her warmth of her face and smel her sweet perfume. 

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"Yachi? Hello? Are you listening?" my new roommate, Aimi Kato, asked me waving her hand in front of my face. 

"Yes, yes. I'm sorry I spaced out." 

"Am I that boring?" she asked teasingly. 

"No, no! I'm sorry." I said nervously. 

"It's okay blondie you should unpack your stuff tho." 

The door was still open and I stood still next to my silver suitcase. Kato went back to unpack her things and watering the plants she placed on the window sill, while listening to music. I made my way to the bed on the other side of the room. The room had one big window right between the beds. The end of the beds were faced the direction of the door. On each side of the door stood a desk and on the same wall as the my bed was a closet for me. Kato had one too on her side. On that friday afternoon all I did was unpack my stuff and had some smalltalk with Kato, that I was now allowed to call Aimi. The sky slowly became darker and darker and my fear bigger and bigger. Since the day my heart got shattered into pieces I couldn't sleep. Nightmares chased me and I tried to sleep as little as I could. If I fell asleep, I would get a panic attack and I knew it. I couldn't fall asleep and risk Aimi noticing me being a trainwreck, but staying up all night for the rest of my college time would be impossible. Every minute I got more anxious and every hour that passed was my personal horror.

"I'm gonna use the bathroom and make me ready for bed, okay?" Aimi asked me. 

"Yea, yea why would that be a problem." I laughed nervously.  

After Aimi was ready I knew it was my turn getting ready for bed and the fear of breaking down became more real then ever. 

"Why do you have to be so weak, Hitoka? You have to let her go! It's the best for both of you. Even tho she was the person that understood you and was the only one listening to me and she was the one to support me fully." I thought on the verge of tears. 

I heard the bathroom door unlocking and put a little smile one. 

"Hey Hitoka are you okay?" she asked me with a soft voice mustering my face.

"What? Oh yea, yea I'm fine I think I'm just alergic to the orchid." I said trying to hide my sadness as good as possible. I wiped my eyes so they looked dry again and smiled. I left, behind the bathroom door, which was between Aimis closet and desk. I locked the door, leaned my back against it and slowly slid down. 

"Hitoka, pull yourself together. You are stronger than this. You managed the Karasuno Volleyball club, you handeld your mother you can do this stupid college thing." I whispered to myself. 

After making myself ready for bed I knew that the horror of college started now. The night had come and the sky was dark and the moon shined in a bright white.