my hairs falling out again...
i don't know how much longer i can hold on, i'm so sad. i'm so stuck. i need help, but i don't want to ask for it. i don't want people to pity me... i have no interest in doing the things i enjoy anymore. i just want to stay in my room and isolate myself from everyone. last night my parents told me it was like i wasn't even here anymore, like i wasn't apart of the family. they don't understand that i just want to be alone, that i just want to stay in my room and sleep. i feel bad for ignoring them... i feel so terrible about myself. i'm starting to think i'm becoming my mom... i hate it. i swear! i'm nothing like her.. or at least i hope. god, i feel so fucking helpless all the time. no matter how fast i run, i can never get away from this unbearable pain.. it always catches up to me. i've tried everything, coping, drinking, drugs, relationships, and yet the never make my problems go away, it only makes the gap between my happiness, and disparity bigger. i can't bare telling my friends how i'm feeling right now, because all i'd be doing would be adding more problems to their lives. it sucks. god, i really do hate being alive... why do we have to go through so much pain in these lives that we've had.. what's the point? we never get anything from it. it doesn't matter what anyone does, we're always gonna end up in the same hole we tried so hard to get ourselves out of. it's really pointless if you think about it, but that's just my opinion... i'll come back soon... hopefully.
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the trials and tribulations of emotions
Poetry...hi there may be trigger warnings from some parts, so please for the love of GOD if you're sensitive don't read this book.
