Crushed by my Crush

Chapter 1

Have you ever had a crush?

If the answers no then you're lucky. If the answer is yes, then you know what I mean when I say, having a crush is terrible. Absolutely horrible. Worst thing ever. You feel as if you're being torn apart. Sometimes you think he notices you. While at other times your convinced he doesn't have a clue who you are. You can't stop thinking about him.... But at the same time it's amazing. It's amazing the way his hair is someone always perfect. And just seeing him in the hall can make your day. Seeing him laugh or smile is heaven. Unless it was caused by another girl, or he doesn't even know you exist.

Now that that's out of the way. Hey. My name's Niomi Smart. I'm in grade 10. I get good grades, and love reading. I have nerd glasses, and braces. I have an ok group of friends, that I've had since grade 6. A few weeks ago I started to develop my first real crush, on a guy named Liam Brown. He has brown hair. He's tall ( compared to me. Stuck at 5.6' ). Slightly tanned. Has the most amazing smile and laugh. He's funny, & athletic. He's smart too.

At first I thought I was just attracted by his looks. But slowly I started to think about him throughout the day. I would think about holding his hand, or the way his lips might feel. I thought about cuddling with him, and being able to call him mine. This is when I realized that I had a crush on him.

It's been 3 weeks since that happened. My feelings keep getting stronger. I'm starting to dream about him. I think about what would happen if we dated. Would he hold my hand in front of his friends? Would he even tell his friends about me? As much as this hurts, there's something that makes it worse. I have never texted him, or had a fun conversation. Sure I talk to him in class, but usually as a group thing.

It makes the pain almost unbearable when I think about that. Even thinking about him laughing from another girl makes me sad. Think of your favourite love story. Now try and think of the opposite. Not just that it didn't end perfectly. But imagine if every good thing that happened, the opposite happened. That's how I feel, as if ever good chance turned into something bad.

I feel like I'm constantly embarrassing myself around him. I always manage to mess up somehow.

I look back up to the front off class. I know, I know. I shouldn't have been introducing myself while at school but oh well.

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A/N

Hey. So only this chapter will be written as if the character ( Niomi ) is talking to you. After this chapter it'll just be here thoughts and conversations... Like a normal book. Anyways thanks for reading.