Breathe

Part 2

I woke up to the sound of my alarm piercing my ear drums. I groan to myself as I push myself out of bed and proceed to do my morning routine. Luckily, I wrapped my hair last night so all I have to do is comb it out. Once I'm finished, I plugged in my ear phones, grab my belongings, and go outside to get catch my bus. As I'm walking up my driveway, I spot the weird looking boy who lives across the street. He looks at me in a weird way causing me to give him an awkward look. Then, he says something to me but I don't hear him because I suddenly rush on to the bus. I don't know why, but I feel safer on the bus than I did outside of my own house.

All I hear now are rude remarks about immature freshman and faint statements about how freshmen have no authority when it comes to the high school life. I knew this was gonna happen, but I didn't expect it to carry on throughout the whole bus ride. Annoying. I personally don't understand why people like to pick on freshman, but hey... whatever pleases their brain. As soon as the bus stops, I check my phone and see three new messages. Just to my surprise their all from the same person. The first one says "Goodmorning.I have a surprise for you." The second one reads "I needed you last night." The last one says "So I'm guessing it's another day where you decide to ignore me."

I roll my eyes. This is so annoying. I don't wanna be someone's go to girl when they need to get off. That's all I was to Jim. He wasn't looking for anything serious. He always told me how much he loved me, but I could never bring myself to believe it. He says the only reason we weren't together is because I was too far in his opinion, but I found out that he dated some chick that lived 5 hours away. I refuse to be used. As much as I thought he was different, I realize he isn't. 

I put my phone on airplane mode as I enter the school building. I scan the room for familiar faces although I know that I won't be first to approach anyone. The air feels so thick. It feels so different from the previous years. I really want to keep to myself this year simply because I'm nervous for what could happen if I let anyone in. Besides, high school students are really messy and one thing I don't like is drama. I suddenly feel like I wanna puke thinking about how much longer I have to come to this hell hole everyday and act like I'm okay. It sickens me. I wish I was home schooled so this wouldn't be an issue. My chest feels so tight. It's just my nerves probably. Although,  I don't know why I would be nervous.

I see more fresh faces than old ones. I quickly head to my homeroom before I can be spotted by anyone. As I'm headed upstairs I hear someone call my name. I turn around and I swear all of the blood rushes from my face.

It's him...