possible suicide letter idfk at this point

explaining

tw (should know most from the title but... whatever-) suicide mentions, rape mentions, abuse mentions, slavery mentions, eating disorder mentions, imnomesia (sleeping disorder), self harm mentions.

so uhh for the past I don't know like... 2 or 3 years ive wanted to die because of my mom, stepdad, stepbrother, and brother... they've all raped me, abused me, and im a slave at their house and ive moved so many schools its unimaginable 

if something does happen I'll let you all know beforehand- if possible, I just wanna say thank you so much for the reads and votes on my story(s) I know like no one will see this or care but yea I wanted to turn this into a book because im gonna start writing and keep track of eating, sleeping, and things like that... I also might turn this into another "about me" book I don't know yet... 

sorry @Idunno123char if I do end up killing myself uhh (FUTURE ONLY OF IT HAPPENS YOU CAN READ THIS IF YOU NEED TO REMEMBER ME OR ANYTHING!!!! AGAIN THIS IS ONLY FOR THE FUTURE IF I DO KILL MYSELF AND FOR THE PERSON MENTIONED I MEAN IG YOU COULD READ IT BUT ITS NOT AT ALL AIMED TOWARDS YOU JUST THE MENTIONED PERSON!!!!!!...!!!!!!! )                                                                                                                         you are the best person on this fucking planet and I love you so much :) <3 I know im just an online friend you met like a week ago but you have said so much to me about life and I felt like I could talk about anything!! :) this happened sooner than both you and me expected and im sorry you had to read this and found out right thru wattpad. you were my only friend.. tell your sisters she's really nice and pretty like you :)) again I love you have a good rest of your life! :)) <3 <3

uhh so the paragraph above is for the person mentioned only... ik I could send them a message but I copy my messages and paste them after reloading since im on my laptop from school I don't have much longer on here until I get a pc/phone/laptop or anything like that love you all and if I do end up doing it I grant everyone permission to re-upload and add to my story "KISS!!?!?" 

love you all goodnight or good day!!!! :) <3 <3 

btw 404 words lmao <3