To Be Saved

To Be Hopeful

Harry looked out the window recalling last night's events. He had saved Sirius and set out in the dark forest to look for Pettigrew even after Dumbledore told him not to , even after Sirius had called his name twice , panicking. Rage had blinded him , he was running fast looking for that traitorous filthy rat. He kept running until he found him , he was fumbling between what looked like the devils snare. "Expelliarmus!" Harry had shouted at the same time as Pettigrew shouted "Stupefy!". This had landed him in the Hospital wing . But at least he caught Pettigrew so Sirius could be freed.

As he sat there thinking, on his boring infirmary bed he noticed the sun rise. It was already 5 in the morning. It was a nightmare that woke him up actually. A reminder of his harsh life. A reminder of the scars etched on his back telling a story no one will ever know.

It was wonderfully cruel how the sun was shining so bright now when it was a complete contrary to what he felt. Cold and void of any emotion or feeling.
Though Sirius had asked him to come and live with him. His lips twitched up to what seemed to be a ghost of a long lost innocent smile. Something blossomed deep within his chest - hope - he realized, like a warm balloon - "No one will ever love you , you freak. You are worthless and you will never get out of here!" - Uncle Vernon's words rung as clear as a bell inside his head. The balloon deflated as quickly as it had formed leaving him cold again.

He had promised himself he would never hope again..never feel again. For hoping only caused pain and he couldn't take any more of that. He slowly rolled up his sleeves to reveal a rough arm covered with incised cuts and deep bruises. Some were old and some were new. But it didn't matter , he didn't matter.

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"Mr. Potter! Mr. Potter!"
Harry's head snapped to his side towards the call of the stern mediwitch.
He quickly rolled down his sleeves careful about not hurting them.
"Mr. Potter , here are your potions that you need to drink right now before breakfast."

She placed the potions on his side table and looked at him sternly. Harry quickly grabbed the three bottles and downed them. Madam Pomfrey smiled at him sweetly and with a wave of her wand breakfast was in front of harry waiting to be eaten. As she made to leave Harry called out to her ,
"Madam Pomfrey, wait! When will I be free to go ?"
Poppy looked at him sympathetically and replied "Tomorrow. Is there anything else you wish to know?"

"Will I...will I be allowed to attend Sirius's trial today evening ?" He asked hesitantly. Poppy's eyes softened
"Though I don't support the idea of you leaving the infirmary so early, you are needed at the ministry. Dumbledore will pick you up by 5pm. Now quickly finish your breakfast." With that the Mediwitch left him to his thoughts and breakfast.

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At 4pm , his friends came to pay him a
Visit.
"Harry!" Hermione hugged him enthusiastically. Harry flinched out of habit. "Jeez! Let him breathe 'mione!"
Hermione pulled back embarrassed.
Harry smiled fondly at his best friend's goofy antics. "How you doing mate?" Draco asked. "I'm fine." He replied. I'm fine. God knows how many times I used that to cover things up. It's almost like an automated reply or a broken record.

"-arry! Harry!" Harry was pulled out of his increasingly depressed thoughts by Draco screaming his name. He saw concern flash over Draco's face and he wished he hadn't seen it at all. "Severus wants to speak to you in private so I guess we'll leave." "Yeah ok." "Don't forget to tell us about the trial mate."said Ron."Will not." "Bye Harry, take care." Said Hermione. Harry waved them goodbye and waited for Severus to come.

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By the time Severus came it was 4:30.
He came to the hospital wing and saw Harry napping. 13 and napping. He thought fondly. Although, even in his sleep Harry looked anything but peaceful. He looked scared to be honest. Severus woke him up. Harry jumped up scared and hit his head on the headrest.

"Harry!" "I'm fine!"

"Sorry I didn't mean to startle you." Severus apologetically stated." It's fine really." Harry brushed it off, absent mindedly rubbing the back of his head.
"I just came to inform that Albus will not be able to come so he sent me to escort you to the ministry." "Will you be there throughout the trial?" Harry asked nervously. "Yes I will be. Now wear these formal robes fast. The trial starts in fifteen minutes." "Ok"

Harry put on his robes thinking all the while. Will I be able to save Sirius? Would Fudge allow Sirius to have my custody? Would Sirius still want to live with me? Would he hate me just like the Dursleys did? Then again Sirius would never love me..that's impossible at the most he would like me ,even my friends and Severus just like me , I can't be loved..no one loves me. Even I don't love me.

'Knock knock'

"Hurry up or we will be late!" Severus said knocking at his bathroom door. Harry quickly fit his tie and came out. He almost tripped but Severus caught him. He blushed with embarrassment. Why am I so careless? "Harry don't be nervous, you'll be alright. We will save Sirius then you can live with him." Severus smiled at him encouragingly. Harry did his best to return the smile.

And with that , off they went to the ministry.

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