Christbella Lake

chapter six loss

The choice's we make define who we are and, the choice's we make have dire consequence's that we have to live with forever.

It's now been eight weeks since. I last heard from Sam I'm starting to worry should, I phone or text him. I don't just want to go over there after what happened the last time. Not unless I'm invited to go over.

I'm sat here thinking After a few hour's. I decide to text him to see how things are.

Me- Sam how are you ? Please talk to me I miss you xx

Sam - Chris how do you I'm the one that lost you and my only chance at happiness.

Me-Sam please let me come over tonight and, we can talk you haven't lost me were still friend's xx

Sam agreed to let me see him. I just have to wait until Seth get's home before. I can go, I should explain that I'm now 5 weeks pregnant and very weak.

While waiting for Seth. I text Mark who was now living with Sam to see if he can tell me anything.

Me- Mark behonest how is Sam coping.

Mark - What can I say Chris.Sam is Sam he wont say much.

I decide that's not good enough. So I phone him it ring's twice before Mark answer's. " Hi Chris". I  sigh.

 " Hi Mark now tell me everything ". He sigh's and then goes in to the story of what as been happening with Sam.

It's been a few week's now and, I have been seeing Sam alot lately and taken jr with me. Sam doesn't say much to me but he love's spending time with jr and playing game's and reading stories.  Jr love's Sam he call's him Uncle Sam. I love watching them play together.

A few weeks later while at the palace. I'm watching my Father and Seth playing with jr in the garden. I'm sat on a bench because, I'm 7 week's gone now and we found out a few days ago.

 I'm having twin's. My phone ring's. I pick it up. " Hello ".  The voice which answer's me is rough and broken. " Chris it's Mark ".

 No oh no I don't know why but, I have a bad feeling. "Mark what's wrong ". I can hear him choking back tear's.

 " Chris I'm so sorry Sam has gone ". Wait what is he saying. " What did you say Mark ". He pause's before saying.

 " Chris I'm sorry. Sam is dead. He died this morning. I know how much you love him and, how much this will hurt but, I had to tell you ".

 Wait I can't take this in Sam is dead. Now the tear's fall fast. As I try to take this in. Seth see's me crying and come's to me.

 He take's my hand and. I mouthed the word's. " Sam is dead ". That's when it hit's me. I can't stop the sob's that follow.

Mark speak's again and, I can hear him crying to. " Chris there is a letter here for you from Sam. I'm so sorry would you like me to get Lex to bring you the letter. As Sam's body is still here and his room is a mess ".

I need to see Sam one last time even if he is a mess. " I need to see him Mark. I dont care about the mess. I just want to see him one last time. I'll be there in 10 minutes ".

He take's a deep breathe and says. " Okay Chris see you soon ". With that we hang up and, I turn to Seth and sob. I can't believe Sam would do this. Sam I will miss you so much and, I will always love you.

10 minutes later we are in the village outside Sam's house though. I suppose its Mark's now. I will never see Sam here again.

 I can't stop the tear's from falling. As I see Sam's house. Seth knock's on the door and Lex open's it and look's at me.

 I look at her through my tear's and she move's to the side and says. " I'm so sorry your highness ". I nod and walk passed her to see Mark sat on the sofa.

 He get's up and move's toward's me. As I move toward's him we hug each other as we cry. A few minutes later we pull apart and he show's me to Sam's room where he leave's me at the door.

I walk in to see Sam's lifeless body, there is an empty bottle of pill's on the night stand. As I get closer to him. I see he has cut both his wrist's.

 I sit on the bed beside him and lay my head on his chest and cry. " Why Sam why ". I know he can't answer but. I'm so lost and hurt.

 "  Why Sam. I love you even though. I couldn't be with you. I still love you ". Blood this hurt's so much and, I miss him. I love you. I never wanted it to end this way.

 I looked over to see a note cover in blood lying next to him. I pick it up and read.

Dearest Chris

                      I am sorry I've tried to live without you but, I can't you are my life, my heart, my reason to live now you have been taken from me there is no more reason to live.

I don't blame you because, I love you my sweet vampire princess Chris you are my everything and as long as you live. 

I will live in you forever Christbella look after Seth jr and the new baby's. I will always be your's and, I hope you can forgive me in time.

I'm sorry Chris this was the only way left for me. I love you Chris and goodbye my one and only true love.

                                I love you Christbella with all my heart

                                                                                      Sam xxxxxx

As I read this farewell note. I can feel myself losing control and, I scream and throw myself on Sam and, cry. I hit him my friend my heart was lost forever.

A week before I was due to give birth it was Sam funeral it was time to say goodbye for the last time to my heart and my friend.

 As his body was lowered into the ground. I could feel the tear's falling as the coffin is layed to rest on the earth.

 Seth jr walk's over to the open grave and kneel's down and throw's the black rose he had in his hand on to the coffin and says.

 " Goodbye Uncle Sam. I love you ". It brake's my heart and, my son is sobbing. So Seth took him away.

 I walk to Sam's grave side and throw my rose in two and, as I walked away. I say. " I will alway's love you Sam. Goodbye ". I leave the grave side without my heart .

this is not the end so bear with me I cryed as I wrote this please comment and vote thanks