The One That Got Away

Totga

This story is a work of fiction. Names, characters,places and events are all fictitious. Any resemblance of a person dead or alive or actual events is purely coincidental.

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★PLAGIARISM IS A CRIME★

"Baby, do you think we can survive having a long distance relationship?" I asked my man who is so good looking just in my eyes. I have a crush on him when we're still a kid but didn't think of having a single chance on him. He knew me as a lesbian because i act like  one.

"Well, if its just me i can handle it baby." He smiled at me with an assurance all over his eyes. "Para sa mahal mo kakayanin lahat." He continue. He's caring,loving and sweet. I was glad that he is mine alone. I won't wish of anything else he would be so much enough for me.

"What if i don't like long distance relationship?" I asked hesitant. I don't want him to conclude that i can easily  get rid of him. "Don't think that i will make you stay baby." I said softly.

"Then, i will give you a pillow to hug with my face imprinted on it. So, you won't miss me that much." And with that all my worries were gone. He really can't disappoint me how he can easily take away all my worries and other unnecessary feelings just by his sweet words.

"Giveeeee meeeee." I feel like my eyes twinkled in such joy because of his suggestion.

After a year and so. We both in our second year college the same course business accounting and finance. We met once a month to make our longing and endurance got less. Hindi kasi kami sanay na magkalayo. It was the first time we will be apart at first puro kami away bati away bati. But when years had passed nasasanay na kaming malayo sa isa't isa. Umaabot na nga sa puntong hindi na kami naguusap pero parang wala na lang sa amin. One time he asked me something that made my whole system schoked.

"L,what if hindi naman na talaga natin mahal ang isa't isa? Na pinipilit na lang nating mag work ang relasyon natin. Oo hindi tayo nagaaway katulad ng ibang normal na magkarelasyon. But the fights are the ones who is making their relationship more funder and stronger." I didn't know what to say. I'm too shocked that made me unable to answer him quickly. I even question myself if 'do i still love him?' and for fuck's sake i didn't know what the answer is.

"Seeing your reaction i know i got a point." The sadness in his voice was evident he didn't bother to hide it. He wanted to make sure i can see it how I'm hurting him.

"Why?" That's the only word who have the guts to escaped from my mouth. He looked confused.

"What why?" He asked.

"Why are you asking me so sudden? Do i made you feel like I don't love you anymore? Does i make you feel unwanted? Does i make you feel like I'm not interested in you anymore?" His silence made me more angry.

"NO! Right? I have never made you feel all of that. Because i did still love you baby and always. But seeing you doubting my love makes me wonder why? Is there someone who told you that just maybe this relationship is just a waste of time?" I felt stung on my heart. I'm hurt no! Im broken. We've been together for years and then what? His thinking this way.

"Rigo, does you see your self ending up with me once?" I almost cried when i sense he didn't even imagine himself ending up with me. "And you're the one who have a guts questioning my love huh?" I chuckled bitterly. How could he? I thought I'm important to him. I thought he loves me.

"That's not the way you see how a person loves you,L." I smirked at him.

"Then how,Rigo?" I challenge him.

"Its how much they thought you before going to bed and after waking up in the morning. Wishing you were there beside him. Wishing you a happiness in each the clock tiks." He sigh. I can see glint of happiness in his eyes. I doubt that I'm the one who he is thinking right now.

"Stop." I suddenly said. I looked at him.

"Rigo, where did i go wrong? What did i do to make you want to leave me and chose her instead." He look taken a back.

"You really thought i am that stupid? That i wouldn't have found out that you're betraying me?" I sadly said.

"I got tired,Rigo. Physically and emotionally. We promised to graduate no matter what will happen to us broke up or not. I was at the urge of giving up cause the pain you cause me was too much for me to handle." My tears start falling kanina pa nila gusto kumawala pero pinipigilan kong magmukhang kawawa sa harap niya but shit i can't stop them from falling. As I'm wiping them out of my face to have my vision back because my tears gave me a blur vision.

"L, I'm sorry. I know i promised you that I won't find another and i will choose to stay single before i could cheat on you. But L, mistake and accident happened." His voiced cracked.

"What do you mean?" I looked puzzled.

"I got her pregnant,L. I didn't meant to cheat on you. I was drunk and hurt when we had a big fight and she was there and i thought it was you. We have sex and unfortunately it bare a fruit." He is now crying. I thought i was broken when i see it through his eyes that he love someone else but what he revealed made me sick.

"I can't let my son grew up with broken family. I know how hurt it felt to have incomplete family. And i knew you would understand L."

"Of course." I wanna punch him in the gut and knock him out but i restrained myself from doing it. " I experienced it first hand Rigo."

"Please be a good father and husband baby. I know promises are made to be broken but I'm hoping you won't disappoint me this time. Promised me you will be okay and be happy." I hugged him one last time and turned my back on him. I felt my whole world crashing down and hearing a sound counting 1...2...3...self distract.

His my greatest love and I never trust that easy. But when can I do aside from letting him go and be happy for him even if it meant not with me. I want to loathed him but the love I feel for him is too much to the point I can't even feel any other thing than this pain. How I wish you never proved that all man are cheater. I really did expect too much from him and I hate the fact that he got me there.

I never imagined myself being devastated like this. How come I am still here? Maybe I'm just existing but merely living.

THE END